It is impossible to be positive , to be happy when you care so strongly. More than anything in the world i want world peace. I want all this killing to fucking stop. All this hate this judgement and fear. He was only 5. Last night, one of my stressful, substance abusing, sleepless nights, i was searching for an encouraging word and came across the channel 5 news. Politics alone had me fucked up in the heart, but worst than that. A 5 year old boy ran out in the street to get a neighbors dog or something irrelevant. They killed him. The car hit him and didn't even stop! They rushed the baby to the hospital. They killed him. They didnt even stop. He was 5. This story had nothing to do with me yet somehow i feel as tho that car hit me! I feel the impact every time i think about it. When i think about college. All of the happy things in life that this little boy never got a chance to experience. They didnt even get out their car to help him. This 5 year old baby what if years from now this 5 year old boy became the president?? He could of been a doctor, an entrepreneur, he could of been somebody, but they killed him. And even worst, i found out it was my friends cousin. They killed Ahshonti's cousin. Damn i just felt the impact every dam time i thought about it. It was unbelievable. Adding to the frustration, the police will never stop abusing their power. Every damn day the police kill a human and no justice is given. What the fuck is fair!!! Why does the color of my fucking face intimidate you white man ? It could have EASILY been me. It could have easily been avoided. All the evil it penetrates my heart to the core. I want it to stop ! Fire and fire only lead to a crisp fucking pile of ash. You kill mine so i kill yours. NO. Stop this aggression and fucking love each other. You kill mine. Then yes of course i will have the highest level of hate and despise. Although, i forgive you. I will continue to forgive you until you get it right. My mission is WORLD peace and it starts with me. I walked home and i cried. I stopped myself and refused to be upset but instead i began writing. World peace, Maybe it will never be. But i will dedicate my fucking entire life to contributing to love and to get others to love. Imagine a world of less hate and more understanding ? Can you even fathom a world ? I can. God help us lord save us.
