I don't know why it's so hard to forget yuju. all we did was spending nights with each other, side by side.
we were having a perfect relationship when out of a sudden, she said she wanted to break up.
I might have been very strong in controlling my emotions. but deep down, it hurts.
it was too early and I barely did anything with her.
but how dare she treated me like a toy? how dare she gave it all away?
I don't even know anymore.
my negative emotions enslaved me over and over again.
in deep thoughts, I heard loud footsteps coming towards me. the scent was so familiar. I looked up and she was there, face full of unguarded interest.
"hey baby. how have you been? I miss you you know."
"what the actual hell? after everything that you have done to me, this is how you approach me? do you even deserve to breathe the same air as me?"
"baby, calm down. why are you getting so angry? don't you usually like my presence?"
"get out of my life. your face is too disgusting for me to look at. seriously, now I know why your mother is embarrassed to have you. it's because you're such a slut who only knows how to be an attention seeker."
"y-ya. isn't that too far?"
"you think so? well. guess what? it is just the starting. hope you are ready for more, slut."
...............
he left yuju behind and ran to the nearest park. he just needed to document his feelings and thoughts.
snapping out of his thoughts, someone handed him a bottle of plain water, hoping for him to calm down.
he turned away and feigned a look of disinterest to get her off.
"I heard every thing just now." she started. "just know, that whatever you doing is what makes you happy."
"how? how are you able to cope with this when I broke up with you?"
"I had it hard too, dummy. I couldn't focus well so I tried hard to forget everything by distracting myself to study more. it eventually got better. but deep down, I still know that I loved you. you just have to look at the brighter side. maybe you are not bothering the other person with your stupid problems."
"you-you loved me?"
"it's ok, jungkook. whatever it is, that was just the past. I always remind myself that even in the bleakest moment of my life, God will see me through it all. so it's doesn't matter now."
"would you accept me back into your life as your..you know. erm. boyfriend?"
"aigoooo, look who's talking. you should solve your problem with her first, alright."
"well, I guess so."
"what's with that tone?"
"i just want to get her out of my life as soon as possible. like I just can't stand her anymore."
she went closer and held his hands.
"do anything and everything. it's for your own good anyway. but please, don't fight fire with fire. don't include her mother in this either. just talk it out, calmly. understood?"
he sighed but nodded.
"thank you, love"
he just hoped that she couldn't hear it clearly.
jungkook insisted on sending her home.
how he secretly missed this.
how he secretly missed staring into her eyes.
how he secretly missed being this close to her.
how he secretly missed how they used to hold hands all along.
how he secretly missed how she would be there for him at all times.
they exchanged their goodbyes and left.
"you're always welcome, love."
