dear diary,
only I know how hard it is to forget someone.
only I know how to hide my feelings.
only I know how to hide the pain.
only I know how to create a fake smile to appear more genuine than my real one.
only I know how hard it is to burst into tears for someone every night telling them to come back.
only I know how it feels to be separated from everyone.
only I know how hard it is to keep someone we love.
only I know how hard it is to let someone go.
only I know how hard it is to start a conversation.
only I know how hard it is to not keep it awkward.
only I know how hard it is to control your emotions.
only I know how to differentiate them.
only i know how hard it is to not be angry at someone.
only I know how hard it is to accept everything.
only I know how hard it is to change.
only I know how to live properly.
- 5 March 2018.
