Darkness in My Life

Fences of the Mind and Heart - Dante

I closed my eyes, hoping that the next day would be better than this. Today was my best friend's last day. Mike Turnish's last day. He was my next door neighbor ever since I have lived in my plain boring cookie-cutter house. He tried to reassure me that he wouldn't lose contact with me, ever.

"Dante, calm down dude. I'm only an hour away, we can still hang out. "
"Yea but you aren't going to be here anymore, remember, "I all but stabbed each word into his aching heart.
"But we can still be friends Dante. Why are you acting like I'm leaving you for forever?"
"Because you are! We are no longer going to best friends, no I'm done being your friend. All you do is get me into trouble with my mom."
"Dante-" but that was it, I had left him alone in the hallway. The final bell had ring for school and the friendship.

Arriving home late from school, as usual with football practice going on for longer than it should, I saw a moving truck out of the corner of my eye.

'What the hell? He just left and the house was already sold! Fuck this shit I'm going to practice throwing to get this shit out of my thoughts.'

I left my stuff in the living room and went back outside with my football to work on throwing a perfect spiral everytime. When I got through a couple throws a black truck with out of state plates pulled up. A man stepped out who had a good build with a brown crew cut, and a boy I can guess is his son dressed in a black bulky hoodie and black hair. When they got out the father said something to the boy and as if on cue the emo kid my age headed in my direction.

"Hi I'm Jack Johnson. I'm your new neighbor and thought I would introduce myself."
"Hi Jack. I'm Dante Livingston. Now if you don't mind I'm working on my throws," I stated to him while grabbing my football.

He left me alone after that but when he left a smile came to my face.

'I'll have fun picking on him, he is a cute... wait no I can't feel this way for someone I just met. Maybe if he hates me for picking on him I can get over these silly feelings,' my thoughts said as I threw the ball as hard as I could, leaving it there for another day.

Sleep was hard to achieve last night, I kept waking up trying to get rid of these nightmares that wouldn't leave me be. They were of me letting my heart be distroyed. Never in all of my life have I dreamt something so vivid as I did last. A black figure reaching in and ripping out my still beating heart turning it into a dark cold void with only darkness and despair. This new heart had one exception from the creature, there is a person it longs for and cares for. However, the face remains hidden from me in this dark dream from hell.

'Putting a fence around my heart is the only way to protect my heart from this. I have to keep this from happening to me!' I thought jumping from my pillow that morning.

At school i was chatting and hanging out with my friends in the halls nears the old dingy lockers. In those crowded hallways I see a person that I don't want to hurt but protect with my life.

'I don't want to hurt Jack...but it seems to keep that protection, that fence around my heart there is no choice.'

As he continued walking down the hall my friends brought him up with a question. I don't remember hearing what they asked but i gave an automatic emotion less reply. After what I said to them they circled around poor Jack and started wailing punches on him. The assult didnt end when he fell to the floor but it continued with them kicking him in the gut with all the strength they could muster.

The beating continued until everyone was out of the halls, and only one minute until class was to start. My heart was crying out for me to stop them, to go save him from this torture he did not deserve to be facing. Fighting my own heart and emotions I turned and walked away leaving him, in order to save myself from a future I don't know if it will happen.