Just A Girl Thing

Prefrance

I am a girl. I HAD all I needed. I had a roof over my head. Two parents. A loving older sister. Oh how I loved my sister. Her name was Lizzy. She was so pretty. Long blonde hair dip-dyed turquoise at the end. She was a bit shorter than most girls her age- 15, but that just made her better. She was so popular and not liking her was like, like.... Like hating puppies! I also had a wonderful friend. My bestEST friend EVER. I could NOT go a day without her. We did everything together. Went to the mall, partied on Fridays, had countless sleepovers.... But all that went away. Here's how....

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So the big "Social" dance for our school was coming up. This is my 8th grade year and the last social i'll go to. I'll have to admit, these thing were getting kind of old but hey, make the most of the last one! Like always, I threw a party before the social with all my friends to get ready like our hair, make up, and nails. Of course I invite my bestEST friend, Jenna.

Well, Jenna and I have a group of 4 friends. Jenna, Ally, Nichole, and I. Ally and I are constantly at war between the attention of Jenna. Then Nichole is just a tag along. But she's nice. And annoying...

I asked Jenna if she would come to my party or if she had made plans with Ally-I hoped not but "trying" to be nice here. She said she didn't know where she was going. I said okay and went around inviting others.

So no one could come to my party except one girl, Hannah. I loved Hannah too. She was a good friend and we've hung out a lot before so I had no problem with that.

The problem was that Jenna, let me remind you-bestEST- friend EVER, was posting a bunch of pictures online about having so much fun with her "BFF's": Ally, Nichole, and some other girl. Well, the hell with that!! I've known Jenna MY. WHOLE. LIFE. Now this Ally chick she just met this year! I am her favorite! I. AM. HER. F-A-V-O-R-I-T-E!!!!! Mine!!! Do you get what's wrong? Do you get what's freakin WRONG? Now she's bff's with some girl she just met this year! And what do I get? One person at my party and she doesn't even invite me to hers? She goes posting all over the Internet thinking I wouldn't see it? Do you see where I'm coming from?

Now I do something that I shouldn't. I know it's wrong but I'm mad so it's okay right? No? Oh well...

*•*•*

Well, I usually sit with Jenna and the rest of our group at lunch and I did something. Something i regret. The worst mistake of my life.

I walk over to Jenna and... The others. I overcame with rage and anger and jealousy, I shrieked at her:"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? YOU ARE MY FRIEND! MYYY BFF!Why would you forget about me?"

Then the WHOLE cafeteria was staring. My face was red. Her face was red. Jenna was crying. There were tears streaming down her cheeks. I can remember it so perfectly. Her normally happy and pretty face now streaked with tears. I cried. I ran home. I never looked back.

Yeah I was only half way through school but what was I supposed to do? My parents don't get home until 4 so they wouldn't find out. I felt terrible. Why did I do that? I crushed her heart. I embarrassed her. Why...why?

Mom and dad got home and so did Lizzy. I kept my head down and stayed out of the way. No one asked me what was wrong. Yeah guys, good to know you care. But, even Lizzy did nothing...

Before dinner, Liz and I were watching the weather. The T.V. said we will have a high chance of thunderstorms and high winds. Maybe even tornados. The last part startled me but I knew I was always safer with Lizzy around. I couldn't stand to lose her or see her move out. I would die without her.

When I was tucked in for bed, Liz came in. She asked me what happened today. I always tell her everything about anything no matter what. So I did. Liz told me just to apologize, which would be hard but feels so good in the end. I agreed so i decided to do it tomorrow during lunch.

*•*•*

So i got to school and I was a bit nervous. I needed to do this. Did I want to lose her forever? No. So get over it. Okay.

I went to homeroom and looked around for my group. Of course, they were there. They weren't looking at me. Nichole just flicked her eyes over and turned her whole body away from me. How the hell am I supposed to work with that?!

Ok Brinna, just calm down (i was talking to myself here) I can say what I need to during P.E.. Okay.

I can't focus in math. Or science. Or history. Now time for lunch. Right. I could barely eat but I was so hungry.

*•*•*

No P.E. today. We have none because of thunder storms and we usually go out side so we did partner conditioning indoors. Except for me. I had no partner. Sooo I guess I can't apologize today then. Hmm maybe over a text later? I don't know! What am I supposed to do? I have no friends! Well I do have Hannah and Lizzy but what about Jenna? I just feel so bad. Why did I do this? Jenna is allowed to have other friends! But why? Just... Why?

The bell goes off and we can go home, finally. It's still raining but it's just a drizzle now. When I get home I take a nap because I need to get away from the world for a while.

I slept through dinner but I'm not hungry so I watch the evening news with Lizzy. Of course she asks me if I apologized. I can't lie to her. It's impossible to lie to Lizzy. I say no though I know she understands.

*•*•*

*Next morning at breakfast*

"Honey I couldn't help but notice you looking a bit upset last night. Are you okay?" My mother asks.

"No. No I'm not okay. Why would I be? My life is ruined! I have no friends! I lost Jenna. So, thank you for just now noticing something was wrong with your daughter!" My voice got louder and louder and I was screaming at the last part. Lizzy looked like she just got slapped even though none of this was directed toward her. My father took a step forward to defend my mother, but she just held up her hand and shook her head.

"Then sweetheart, why don't you just make some more friends?" She said, going back to wash the morning round of dishes.

"I'm, uh, going to go to school now...?" Liz said awkwardly. "My ride is here."

"Yeah I think I'll be on my way to work now. By hon." My dad mumbled and gave a kiss to everyone and left.

Now it's just me and my mom. No conversation. No attempts. Just silence. Shit! What's wrong with me? I'm just going to yell at everyone now? Mom walks out to the car and I follow with no feeling of any words between us in our future. As predicted, the trip to school, was silent.