Bond

♡I miss her♡

It's been technically more than five years since I last saw her. I have her photos in my phone which I managed to take sneakily before. I see them every night and wish to have a dream about her.

I just couldn't forget her. I still miss her. I miss her so bad. Now I've graduated and am an engineer.

I'm well paid and sort of good looking as girls are practically hanging over me. But I couldn't date anyone. It feelt like betraying Asha.

Though it's not that I was dating her or something. She doesn't even know me. I am just totally head over heels for her.

I said "am". That means still I'm in love with her. I just can't help it. I was a total study geek. Though I wasn't a great student overall because I didn't like to obey all what my teachers said or doing my homework. But I was good at study.

I was obsessed about reading. I didn't have much friends. And now I don't have any friends actually. Whatever, during school Abrar made me his friend so basically his friends became my friends too. But my only true friend ever was Abrar.

I said "was" not because he's not my friend anymore but because Abrar is not alive anymore. He died three years ago.

He was the only person in the whole world who knew about my Asha. I always have distant myself from people. But I don't know how there was this change in me after seeing her.

She was with people but she seemed so lonely. I wanted to with her sharing her loneliness.

I stalked her for months. I thought about her more than I breath. And the day I planned to say her that I want to be by her side, she's gone. Like really gone from my life.

She moved out to another city that I don't know where. I was wandering in rain that day frustrated so I got pneumonia and found myself admitted in a hospital.

I was dozing off all the time for those powerful pills. After fifteen days I was stable but that was too late. Her college exam was over and she won't come to college anymore. I asked her house owner even her friends but they didn't seem to know anything about where they've shifted.

There was no way of getting in touch with her. I wanted to forget about her. Believe me, I did. But I just couldn't.

The more I tried to forget about her the more I found myself thinking about her. I wanted to delete her photos that I managed to take while staking her. But I couldn't bring myself to do that.

What'll I do if her photos are also gone like her. I still feel some kind of bond between us. When I close my eyes I see her smiling face. I can give up my everything just to see once how Asha looks now.

After all these years. I've missed her every moment of the passed years. I was depressed for a whole year because I couldn't tell her anything. I went to her college for several months even though I knew she won't come. I just couldn't believe the fact that I can't see her again. As if my going there was going to bring her back magically.

Why do I miss her so much?  It's not that she was with me 24/7. I just want to see her. Is it that much?

The worst part is that I've seen her only for months, that too without introduction or any conversation. But I remembered her for years!

When I've been having these thoughts someone called me. Okay Asif. Get your head clear, you are at work.

I turn and see Mr. Ishak, one of my colleagues. He told me that our Boss wanted to see me. I wonder why?

This was the first place I came for an interview and got selected. Thanks to my good marks. So I moved from my parent's house as my work place is far from there.

Currently I live alone. I've told before my salary is good. So I live quite luxuriously. I work hard and I'm good at my work.

Now that I think about it  I haven't done any mistakes. Then why am I being called by my boss? As my moment of Asha thinking got ruined already I got up and start for boss's office.

He wants me to go for a meeting with some people for a deal. It's not that simple. As I have to convince them for a meeting with me. And again I have to convince them to make the deal with our company.

I guess it's urgent and important. As I told him that I'll do my utmost he handed me an envelope and said that I have to go there the day after tomorrow. Then l left his office.

I'm totally pissed off. Not about the whole assignment thing but I don't really like traveling. That too a sudden one without any mental preparation.

I went back to my seat and opened the envelope to find a train ticket for the day after tomorrow.

Wait, this place. I see the name of the place again. It's the town where Abrar's family lives. I haven't seen them for so long. And suddenly I'm excited to go there.

I miss him so much. Though he won't be there but his family is fond of me. I know they'll be sad as I will remind them Abrar's memory. But I can't help going to his house if I'm going to be in the same town for one week or more.

So it turns out that I'm not pissed any more rather I surprisingly found myself excited.