Family [Jessie J]

Chapter 9

It's half past twelve and I'm sat outside Clair's house in my car, I know I'm early but I just needed some space. Danny and I had been all cute and cuddly this morning up until about eleven where he clearly wanted to take it further so I made the excuse that I needed to go and get ready for Clair. Luckily he bought it and gave me a last kiss before he left. The last kiss was definitely the most passionate one yet but they're nothing like I expected. I expected sparks and fireworks, not just a fizzle. But maybe it'll get better if I stick with it for a while.

I just sat there thinking about my relationship with Danny for around twenty minutes before stepping out of my car and greeting Clair. "Babe you could have come in earlier, I didn't mind you being half an hour early."
"Sorry. I was just thinking." You justify.
"Thinking?" Clair asked confused as we sat down in her living room. I crossed my legs and turned to face her.
"About Danny."
"Oh... So you're in love then?" She asked a little half heartedly.
"I wouldn't say that." I mumbled but she still heard.
"Why? What's wrong?" She asked sounding a little happier. There's something strange going on here.
"I don't know... It's just not what I expected. I really like Danny but I haven't fallen for him... Yet."
"That's not like you. You're normally head over heels in love with that person before you've barely even spoken to them." Clair pointed out.
"I know... There's been a lot going on recently with Ellen and everything." I excused.
"How is she?" Clair asked. Her beautiful smile stretching over her perfect teeth.
"She's fine. She doesn't have any heart conditions, just a massive scar down her chest. And she's beautiful. I know I said she looks like me but she's a beautiful version of me." My words coming out slightly too fast for my mouth to keep up with.
"You are beautiful though Jess." Clair lowered her voice almost seductively. No... She's straight.
"Thanks." I shyly smiled and blushed as our eyes locked together. Clair was trying to read me. "So errrm... How's George?" I asked. George is Clair's long term boyfriend. They've been together for a year and three months now.
"He's gone." She looked down at her hands and blinked furiously to stop the tears that were threatening to spill over into her rouged cheeks. "I caught him cheating. That bitch that he works with." Her voice broke as she broke down into tears. "I just needed some company last night. I felt so lonely." I pulled Clair into my arms and rubbed her back soothingly.
"You know. He's a bastard. Anyone one who hurts you doesn't deserve your tears. You're so much better than him. You're strong and don't need him. I promise to be more here for you. I'm sorry I've hardly seen you recently." My voice grew quieter towards the end. I should have been here for her. I've been ignoring my best friends plea for company. What kind of a friend does that? Clair continued to cry into my neck but her her sobs were becoming slowly softer. I sniffed her hair as she was trying to compose herself and wow, it smelt amazing. Clair's natural smell is hard to describe, it's quite fruity but there's something else there too, but it is one of my favourite smells in the world. Is that strange?

We were removed from our position when the oven timer started beeping. Clair pulled away and wiped her eyes, smudging her mascara. "Sorry Jess, I've ruined your t-shirt." Clair mumbled.
"Don't worry about it babe, it'll wash." I smiled to lighten the mood.
"I look awful don't I?" Clair sniffed and giggled and I giggled too. "Why don't you get a new t-shirt from upstairs and I'll sort the dinner out?" Clair asked as she stood up.
"Don't be silly, go sort your make up out and I'll deal with lunch." I pushed her up the stairs and served out.

Clair came back down a few minutes later with a refreshed face of make up, that was simple and natural. It's only then that I took in what she was wearing and damn, she looked hot. She was just wearing a pair of black leggings and a baggy white t-shirt. I always found girls more attractive when they're in casual, comfy clothes. "Are you okay?" I asked as I place our plates of spaghetti bolognese on the table opposite each other.
"I'll live. I'm just totally done with guys." Clair sighed.
"Done with guys?" You ask. Her choice of words piquing your interest. There was a silence before Clair answered.
"You're a girl." She whispered.
"Last time I checked I was, yes." I replied smirking a little.
"I was wondering.. Don't worry." Clair stopped herself from carrying on. I put my fork down and sighed. I took Clairs hand in mine and got electric shocked. Typical. Our eyes met breifly. I looked away before I got pulled in, Danny is my boyfriend.
"Clair, you know you can tell me anything. I won't ever judge you and I promise I'll always listen and try to help you as best as I can." I stroked my thumb over her kncukles. Well I did until she pulled away, picked up our plates and put them in the sink.
"Thanks Jess, I know you'll always be there for me like I am for you. If you ever have any problems, I'll be the first to help you. I'd catch a bullet for you Jess. I... You're my best friend and I'll never let anything happen to you. If Danny so much as puts one hair out of line, he'll have it coming." Clair started to get angry so I embraced her in a hug.
"I don't know what I'd do without you." I whispered in her ear and stroked her hair to calm her down. "Come on, let's go and sit down." I dragged Clair towards the living room.
"Actually babe, can we go and upstairs? It'll be comfier plus I have those God dammed stomach cramps." Clair complained.
"Awwwr babe. Do you want me to make up a hot water bottle for you?" I asked wanting to take care of one of my best friends.
"No it's fine, I'll just use you." She poked her tongue out and climbed up the stairs. I rolled my eyes and follwed her to her room.

I rolled my eyes at Clair's film choice. Bound. An eighteen rated lesbian film, she knows how much these turn me on. "Clair." I whined.
"Whaaat?"
"Why this film? You won't want me masturbating in your bed will you?" I asked.
"Y- No." She mumbled. I could have sworn she was going to say yes. Hmmm... "Come on babe. It's one of my favourite films."
"Really?" I asked as my brows knitted.
"Yeah! I just like to keep my love for lesbians quiet."
"I noticed." I mumbled too quiet for Clair to hear.
"What was that hun?" She asked as she sat next to me on the bed.
"Oh... You're not trying to tell me something are ya?" I winnked to make it look as if I was joking but I wasn't really.
"No..." Clair looked towards the tv screen and already the very hot girls were making out. Damn. This really isn't the time to get horny. I turned to look at Clair who turned back to the tv as soon as I saw her. She's been acting very strangely today.

Half way through the film Clair decided to use my shoulder as a pillow and rest her head on it. I wasn't bothered so I wrapped my arm around her waist. "Babe do you still have those cramps?" I asked, she just nodded, her eyes ow glued to the screen. I wasn't watching anymore because if I did I'd have to end up having sex with Danny and I didn't want that to happen. I mean... I didn't want that to happen... yet...? Urgh. "Is it okay if I do this?" I started to trace light patterns of the area you get stomach cramps.
"Thanks Jess, that's amazing." She briefly smiled at me before turning back to the film. How she can watch this on her time of the month I'll never know.

Forty five minutes later when the film finally finished and I was feeling a little wet, just the damn sex moans turn me on, Clair looked up to me and looked me in the eyes. She twisted slightly, I'm guessing so she could see me properly. Her eyes quickly flickered to my lips and back up to my eyes. I subconsciously licked my lips as an automatic response to anyone doing that. "What's it like?" Clair asked breaking the silence that had formed over us. "Kissing girls. What's it like?" Clair's eyes moved down to my lips again almost as of she was trying to work out how they work.
"Clair, serious-" I was cut off by Clair's lips crashing on mine and before I could process anything that was happening I was kissing her back. My whole body tingled with excitement, passion and lust. This is exactly what I thought a kiss from Danny would be like, with fireworks and fire starting everywhere and the butterflies going crazy in my stomach. This is the kiss that I wanted, that I needed. I swiped my tongue over Clair's lip and she allowed me entrance as our tongues fought for dominance, my tongue tasting every part of her mouth, feeling every lump and bump of her teeth, tasting her strawberry lipgloss.

We pulled away as the need for air became apparent. Clair smiled trying to get her breath back when all that filled my brain was worry and panic. I tried read Clair to see of she enjoyed it because it was me or if it was just because it was a girl. I couldn't. What the fuck had I just done?

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Looks like Jessie has got herself into some trouble. *giggles evilly*

Dedicated to bluejanny because I was talking to her last night and she's cool :D

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