i hit my head on the wall, hard.
the pain in my head made my thoughts jumble making it easier to stop thinking.
but like always, the thoughts come back.
he doesn't love you.
he always lies.
no one loves you.
useless human.
i sighed as my phone began to ring.
KWANG IS CALLING...
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i picked up my phone that sat in front of me on my empty floor,"..hello."
i heard my best friend's voice from the other side of the line,"gun! what happened? you haven't been acting right. off said you were mad at him."
i felt my heart sting.
off didn't love me, i knew this.
kwang's voice became more of a worried tone,"are you okay?"
i pressed my lips together,taking a deep breath,"i'm..alright. i think..i'm better off alone."
i became quiet and so did kwang.
she probably doesn't want to be my friend anyway.
i know i push people away, it's not my fault i don't trust anyone.
i held back my tears that decided to form,"i'm sorry."
"no. you have no reason to be sorry. it's his own fault he kissed someone else,okay? don't think you aren't good enough. you are fine the way you are. if you dislike him so much because of that then come over to my house and i'll let you rant as much as you want to me." kwang spoke, her voice cracking little by little,"i just hate seeing you like this."
i felt the hot tears that formed stream down my cheeks.
i am so thankful i have her as a friend.
"okay. i'll come over in an hour." i said quietly.
"see you." i hung up while wiping my tears away.
