If The Stars Fall

Prologue

Here I am writing my essay for our year-end evaluation.

I've written every piece of me in this sheet. I've filled up the pages with all the tears and laughs I experienced throughout the course of my year.

We are all graduating and I will miss them all. I will miss 'him'.

He filled my empty world with smiles and never-ending laughs.

We shared our first meal together and we shared a hug under the oak tree where we wrote our names.

A hug that made me feel special, although it wasn't right. I cried and all he did was to laugh at me.

We broke the rules together.

We skipped classes and drove to the beach with the car he stole from their garage.

He enjoyed the beach as much as I enjoyed his company.

He will never know how deep I've fallen for him.

A simple guy with the world ahead of him.

I promised myself I won't fall for anyone, but I can't stop my heart beating for him.

His eyes, his smile, how his cheeks felt soft under my hands.

How he pats my head whenever I feel mad.

He has become my world, and it can't be.

I can't break the code.

I can't break the rule.

Maybe I'll love him in my next life.

Not today, not tomorrow or even next year.

We can't be.

I can't break our code.

But I just can't stop catching the star even though I know that catching it is not even possible.

All I know, stars explode and die.

Just like how my heart died from my feelings for him.