unconditionally l.h

Four

A/N

Please remember that there will be some mistakes. I am a breathing human too, I'm not just some Siri or Google, ok bye

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S Y D N E Y- 3rd O F J A N U A R Y 12:00am

It's too cold to find warmth. You realise in tragic moments, you crave solutions, desperately grasping for one.

Yet there's none. I've realised, I'm stuck in this pit and always will be. Either today is better than yesterday, or yesterday was better than now, neither of them tolerable. I can take a step further but somehow I get pushed back twice as hard, to breaking point.

Losing Cale wasn't the biggest tragedy to me, but for Violet, it's life on line and once I lose Violet, it will be the last feather to the camels back, I will officially just be a lost soul.

I will have no one to stand behind me to catch me when falling, I'm worried the demons in my mind will get the best of me, sending my mind somewhere else.

All I am is a broken, abandoned piece of glass, and no one can see me broken, or they're too scared to bleed.

I'm not good enough, proves why I've been cheated on. I've always made fun of Cale, judging him, making out he's the joke, obviously I was oblivious of the things he's capable of, and I'm clearly the joke around here. Cheating wasn't my first guess of how we were to go separate ways, I would of thought he'd hit me one too many times.

I don't feel jealous, nor emotional, I feel a huge trait of betrayal. Those hypocritical moments where I got accused for making love with another person was really just the guilt seething into his brain, automatically judging from his confidential secrets reflecting his behaviour. Deep down, he was searching for my wrongs so he could throw his in my face.

The saddest thing is, I thought he was authoritative, I believed he was responsible for his age, in reality he's just like every 19 year old guy I've met. Desperately craving sexual relief, even if it meant you had a girlfriend not prepared.

Tossing and turning, tossing and turning. I just can't seem to find sleep. Without even thought, I brought my feet to Luke's door, knocking.

What on Earth am I doing?.

He opened the door his hair looking out of place, his eyes squinting at me. He was in fact pant less.

"Uh, I'm sorry don't worry" I turned around

"Kristy" he sighed

"Yeah?"

"Just get the fuck inside, I'm already awake" his voice was deep making my skin tingle

"Ok" I whispered walking into his room

"What's wrong" he rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand

"I broke up with Cale"

He slowly pulled on some.. Tights? Are they tights, or are they jeans. What the fuck?.

"Oh" he croaked "why?"

"He cheated" I clenched my fists "he cheated on me"

He closed his eyes opening them again

"He cheated on you?"

I've never seen someone so unaware when waking up

"Yes, look Luke I know you're tired so I'll just go back"