In The Middle Of Nowhere (#Wattys2017)

....Growing up slowly is Hate....

Elna's P.O.V:

I am seriously fucked up right now! The unwanted memories of yesterday came running back to me how I said yes to Zayn, to the kiss, then the hug and when I cried and Louis made it out, then he kissing me. Wait, well, that was heaven, but Zayn having a fight with his best-friend because of ME, then Louis asking me to tell Rose about his love for her, then he asking her and she saying yes.

Argh! Well, now my head hurts and I just want a hug from five mommies. Hannah's, Naureen's, Niall's, Louis' and mine! Can my life be more worse?

I just wanna forget everything and live my life peacefully, but my life doesn't wanna come peacefully to me. Louis Tomlinson is so busy with his life which is Rose.

I heard my phone's ringtone and saw Hannah and Naureen face-timing me. I recieved it and as soon as they said Hi. I started crying loudly.

*START OF FACE-TIME*

El, oh my gosh, why are crying?- Han

El, chill bae. Just stop your crying? -Naureen

I don't know why! I just wanna cry me heart out and die. I don't wanna live anymore. I made it all worse. I could've expressed my love to Louis and not accept Zayn and face these consequences. -Me

No, El, it isn't you. It is us who told you to execute this plan. But, whatever, just have patience because we know that he loves you El and you love him so much. Let him come and express it to you. -Hannah

Hannah! -Naureen

What did you just say Han? -Me

She said nothing. She said we know you both love each other. Just keep patience and he will show his love for you. -Naureen

Han, you should tell me the truth.- Me

IT IS NOTHING, EL! CAN'T YOU JUST SHUT UP AND GO TO SLEEP INSTEAD OF CRYING? I AM TELLING YOU IT IS NOTHING! -Naureen & Hannah

*shock* Ok, I'll go. Bye! *cries loudly* - Me

*END OF FACE-TIME*

I hang up and bury my face in my bed, sobbing.

I felt really hurt and started crying loud. I heard my ringtone several times, but just wanted a piece of sleep as my friends said and I slept crying, listening to music and this song came on. The one which is relateable now.

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

This is so true for me. I cry even more loud

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you

Can someone just call my sleep to me?

I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I soon drift off to sleep and think about nothing, but how to ignore it all.

But, one thing is sure for now.

I HATE YOU, LOUIS!

Harry's P.O.V :

This is turning out to be shit now! It has been a month and these two love birds are so engrossed in their fake relationships caring for each other, but doing nothing but giving hateful looks.