Excerpts from the book I'll never write

broken

"He smiled at her, the way he once smiled at me. It's crazy to think the thing that used to make me feel so special now makes me feel so used."

"Sometimes I wonder if you think of me when you can't sleep. If you wonder how things would've been if you hadn't of cheated because I do."

"What's the point anymore? We're a microscopic being in a world that's bigger than we could comprehend. In reality no matter what people tell us, we don't matter."

"There was a time that you knew everything about me. From the color of my eyes down to my biggest regret. But now your mind is filled of knowledge of her..."

"This isn't a cry for attention. I actually wonder who would give a single shit if I killed myself right now."

"Well what am I supposed to do? Everything I know is gone."

"People ask why I'm so obsessed with music, but music is the only thing that was here when literally nobody else was."

"It's funny how one sentence can make or break me completely."

"How could you possibly think I wouldn't care if you left me. You were the only thing having me hold on and now that you left, I'm allowing myself to fall."

"You're amazing, you're incredible, you're talented, but all I wanted was for you to be mine."

"When you're with me, you're perfect. When you're with her, you're different. I can't help, but wonder which is the real one."

"Everyone says they understand, but most of them can't even fathom the pain you are going through everyday."

"When I look around that first day, my eyes immediately went to you. Maybe that's because they knew how much you'd mean to me."

"The only thing keeping me sane is this other world I have in my head, where you and I live happily ever after."

"What people dont realize is there is no such thing as a happily ever after. Because there's a life after the credits role."

"I have all these walls up to protect myself from people like you. But somehow, you managed to break in and that's when you realized I was way more fucked up then you thought. So you did what you needed to do to protect you, and that was to leave."

"I wish I didn't care. I wish I could forget what we had, but for some fucked up reason my brain thinks it's fun to play a monologue of our memories everytime I hear your name."

"The color blue, our favorite songs, football games, homecoming, pianos are just a few of the things that remind me of you."

"'I love you'
'No you don't. If you loved me, you wouldn't have left me.'"

"I wish I was enough to be yours."

"I thought I had finally found someone good. Finally someone who loved me for me. So I let myself fall and right when you were supposed to catch me, you stepped back. Now I'm shattered on the floor, all because of you."

"I want to beg for you back. Find a way to win you over, but if you don't want to be with me whats the point?"

"'I'm sorry, I was dumb. I love you, I need you please.'
'Oh silly boy. You think I would take you back after everything? It took me awhile to get here. But now I can confidently say go fuck yourself.'"