Miss Jackson || Brendon Urie fanfic

9. Alex

A/N I'm late, I know, I'm sorry. But I can explain! I just recovered from a concussion so, yeah... I wasn't allowed to use my laptop, so I couldn't update. I'm pretty sure you understand. Anyway, here's the chapter.

*** Trigger warning, this chapter includes bullying and self-harm ***
Read A/N in the end.

Brendon left early this morning. Right now, I'm in his house, petting his dogs and playing on his piano. I have to leave for school in five minutes. Brendon gave me the keys to his car.

I get in his car and drive off. It feels weird driving a car that's not mine nor my parent's, it feels like I have to be extra careful with it. Which is the case. I don't even want to know how much this thing costs, let alone pay for it.

I arrive at the parking lot, find a parking spot, park the car and get out. I make sure the car is locked before I walk off to the lockers, where I usually meet Delight.

While sending a text to Brendon, I bump into someone and almost drop my phone. Luckily enough, I'm able of catching it before it hits the ground. I look up to see who I bumped into, and my smile immediately fades away. Ruby...

"Can't you watch where you walk, you little piece of shit? I'm walking here."

"I'm sorry, I was sending a text. I didn't see you coming."

"That's a nice way of saying I have a slim body, thank you. You could use some practice to get slim as well. We all know no-one will like you like this..."

"I-"

"I'm just trying to help you, you know?"

I nod, turn around and fast-walk towards Delight. Am I fat? I mean, I'm not as slim as Ruby, but she's practically a skeleton.

***

At noon, when I walk to my locker, I see Ruby standing there. I don't have time to run, because she already noticed me. She comes my way.

"Hey, Alex. I'd like to give you another tip. Use some make-up. Your face is ugly, just so you know. Actually, use a lot of make-up. A little won't help you."

She doesn't wait for me to answer, she just walks away, leaving me stunned. Is she right? Am I ugly? I mean, I've never had a boy or a girl come to me to declare his or her love... Maybe it's because I'm ugly, and fat? Is she right?

I know I shouldn't let her get under my skin, but I can't help it. And I have no-one to protect me right now... Yes, I could call Brendon or Dallon, but I can't bother them with this. They're working. They have to focus on their job, not me. I'll survive by myself... "You are a strong and independent woman", Olivia would say. But Olivia isn't here, and right now, I'm feeling really lonely, even though Delight is waiting for me.

I throw my books in my locker, take my lunch and walk to the school's dining room.

***

The bell rings, we can go home. I had a lot of fun in music. We decided to do another rehearsal on Wednesday, in Brendon's house. He said we could use it, so we will.

I walk to Brendon's car, and when I'm about 10 feet away from it, I notice Ruby, leaning against the car. Shit. I can't take this... Not right now...

"Hey Alex. I was waiting for you. Do you walk that slow because of your fat body? You should really do something about it, and your ugly face. I'm actually being friendly right now. O yeah, one more thing. If you tell that little friend of yours to call my brother, I'll destroy his car. Do I make myself clear?"

I nod. "Very."

"Good. Enjoy your ride home."

And with that, she leaves me alone. She can't be doing this, right? Brendon told me I had to tell him when something happened, but I can't. He'll call her brother, and then she'll destroy his car... Guess I'll just have to keep this to myself for now...