1: Lying
For five months I have been living with me auntie. Over that time period I have gone to a dance, getting mastery on tests to getting my first boyfriend. However I discovered another thing something I was counting on, I'm depressed and I suffer from depression. Moving to my aunties house, I will be the thousandth time I've moved in my 14 years of living. My last school I was terrible for me. I was bullied (verbally) by all the boys in my class (13boys) every day.
But I always moved back to go to that school, you want to know Why? Because I had friends. Honest and trust worthy friends. I don't make friends easily, because no one ever wants to be my friend (and I don't know why?). moving in my auntie it really wasn't any different from any other time I've moved in the past. The only difference is that no one is verbally mean to me. There is people who say that they're my friends, but I always feel left out by them and everyone around me.
The one thing I didn't count on his getting a boyfriend (I know you're reading this). However me being me I feel like I'm messing up everything with him. And I know I am. I'm a socially awkward person to be around. And he can see that. I follow him and his group of friends. I lie to myself every day because knowing that I'm not ok. I lie to my boyfriend, to my "friends", to my auntie, my parents, but most importantly I lie to myself saying I'm fine when I feel so alone and such a outsider.
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Confessions Of A Teenage Girl 💕
Non-FictionThis is like "how I honestly feel about my life" but not as deep and sad because I hurt people I care about.so this is me telling my feelings just mot as detailed. Please leave comments.
