Realizing you have nothing:
I've been having suicdial thoughts, because I have enough left in my life to live for. Everyone in my life has these expectations of me. Everyone else is running my life but did anyone ever think I my heart would ever give up on me. I feel extremely alone and depressed. I'm not good enough for anyone. Not for my gradians, not for my family, nor for my friends no one. Not even for myself. I fail at every single thing I do EVER. I can never do good at school. I'm a idiot because I can't understand things easily. I'm not pretty or attractive to anyone. I can never be happy. I'm not lying the last time I was happy and smiled was over 1 year ago. I don't have friends I only have me. So when I say I'm going to kill myself people just say "no don't you have so much to live for" but in reality I don't. The best thing that could ever happen to me now is if I died. I might leave a lot of people hurting. But the one thing I can say is.
"Where were you when I was hurting. Now you now how I felt every single day for the last year and half"
As much I want to do it I made a promise to my consular that if I did want to hurt myself I had to call for help. If you're one of my "friends" that are reading this, you still want be my friend after reading this it's your choice. I'm not a selfish person ok. But I'm done putting on that fake smile and pretending to be so nice. Because I tried that. And it got me no where.
I HATE MYSELF AND I HATE MY LIFE.
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Confessions Of A Teenage Girl 💕
Non-FictionThis is like "how I honestly feel about my life" but not as deep and sad because I hurt people I care about.so this is me telling my feelings just mot as detailed. Please leave comments.
