ending with love (NaLu)

Monster, is that all i am?

He could feel his dragon instincts starting to take over, "but why now of all times?" Natsu thought to himself as he quietly snuck into Lucy's bed late in the night to sleep next to the girl he had grown to be so fond of in the past few months. She was constantly on his mind always smiling that big smile that made his life so bright, and that beautiful laugh that he loved to hear.

He felt the scales cross over his face and a small dragon like growl escape his lips as his body laid next to hers, the small amount of contact making his nerves crazy. He wouldn't lie, he did want her sexually but he would never force her. He would wait until she was ready to do it with him even if it took forever, he would wait until she liked him back, until she was his. He forced his dragon instincts away, squashing them so they couldn't take over to sanctify his desires.

"Ngh natsu?..." Lucy groaned out as she snuggled closer to the warmth of his body. Natsu gave his own groan as lucy draped her arm over his stomach, her hand falling incredibly close to his groin. He rolled over moving her arm off him and wrapped his arms around her body, pulling her in close to him. He buried his nose in her hair, the scent of strawberries and vanilla filling his nose.

"Luce." natsu breathed out as he closed his eyes to fall asleep. He felt lucy Stir under him and his eyes immediately snapped open. "N-natsu! what are you doing on my bed?!" she screamed trying to move away from him. Natsu just clung onto her tighter.

"Luce. Lucy. Please just stay by my side, don't leave just yet. Please lay back down and let me enjoy this moment, b-before..." Natsu's words got caught in his throat and he sat up with his eyes starting to tear up, his hands flew to his face to hide his tears as sobs racked his body. Lucy looked at him shocked, she wrapped her arms around him and smiled a sad smile as her own tears started to fall down her porcelain cheeks.

"Who knew the almighty dragon slayer would cry to me, a plain celestial Mage , who isn't even that strong."

Natsu could feel Lucy's arms around him, he could smell her tears. He turned around and faced her with a serious look on his face even as tears continued to fall from his eyes, he cupped her face in his hands. "Luce why are you crying?" "I thought you knew I hated to see my...nakama, cry. It pains me as much as it pains you to not be able to find igneel." Lucy tilted her head lightly and the sorrowful smile reached natsu's eyes.

"Luce don't cry because of my foolishness, please I don't want to see you sad." His brow furrowed. "Natsu why are crying then? Tell me."

Natsu leaned his face a little closer to Lucy's, their noses touched and he smiled a fake smile that was only perceived as a pained expression.

"I was going to leave today before you woke up, I was gonna get a leave from the guild so I could give you your space. I was gonna train to become stronger so that you might l-like me the way I like you l-luce." Natsu blushed lightly at his confession.

Natsu stared into Lucy's eyes, they were filled with hurt. Lucy started crying harder and she pushed natsu away from her. "You were gonna leave me! You were going to leave without saying a word to me! Natsu you Baka!" She covered her face with her hands and scooted as far away on the bed from natsu as she could. Natsu felt his heart ache.

"Luce, please stop crying. I don't like it when you cry." "It's all your fault I'm crying!" She yelled. Natsu reached out for her. "NO! Don't touch me! Just go natsu! I'll never like a monster like you!" Lucy screamed. Natsu pulled his hand away, he looked down his hair shadowing his face as he got off the bed.

"Your right you'll never like a 'MONSTER' like me. I was being foolish, goodbye Lucy." Natsu jumped out of the window and ran away wiping at his eyes as he cried, his broken and shattered heart falling apart.

A/N: okay guys so this is the prologue to my story. I hope you like it so far, and believe me it'll be a good nalu story but I just had to make it a little emotional for natsu for once, since usually lucy is always the heart broken one. Anyways be on the lookout for the next chapter :)