In Love With A Demon

•Trying Not To Remember•

(Okay TBH I cried when writing this... but more at the end. I don't know why? I think I have problems?! But you tell me if you got choked up reading the last part!)  

3ed person P.O.V

Mephistopheles looks over Y/n, holding onto his chin. "We need to talk..." he says as he sat down in his chair, "So...?" Y/n asked her heart ponding she didn't exactly know why. "Well, it seems Sock has thought of killing himself but something seems to stop him every time? Do you know what that might be?" He says smirking, "I- I don't know?!" Y/n says choking up not wanting to lose everything... again. He then looked over to her and gulped, Mephistopheles has made some what of a friendship with Y/n. And now doesn't want to see her like this. (Ahhhh, the Devil has fillings?!) He was going to tell you that you need to get it together but now all he wanted to do was hug you. He flouts over to you and hugged you, you stand there confused. You hug him back, "You know what? Um I have something for you!" He says letting go of you and moving a few papers around he then pulled out a small book, he handed it to you. "Wha- what's this?" You say looking down on the small F/c book, "Its a book of everything that ever happened when you where alive! You can flip to a page and then end up there and watch yourself. Now the you you'll see wont see you but it helps to see your past sometimes to be happy?!...I think?" He sighs at the end, "Um okay?" You say opening the book, it had pictures and writing of your life. "you can have the day off." He says to you, before you could say no he snapped his fingers and you where in your apartment. 

You look around before looking down at the book, *sighs* 'maybe just a small look?' you think as you flip to a random page, you really don't remember much from when you where a human.

Y/n P.O.V

I flip to a page and sit it down I close my eyes and count to ten I then open my eyes and see me walking down the street. I look like I could be about 13? I flout next to me, as my 13 year old self walks she looks scared?! I honestly don't remember this? "HEY! YOU!" Someone says from behind us, me and my past self both turn around. Right then I remember this, "Crap..." my past self says before running off. The kid runs after past me, Past me runs into a brick wall and falls to the ground. The kid sees this and runs up to past me and starts kicking past me all over, I can hear past me crying as she curled up. I remember that felling now, felling sad and alone like I wasn't worth living. As my past self in crying on the floor this kid is laughing and I can't do anything to stop this because it already happened, the kid runs off after seeing that I was bleeding. "SEE YA TOMORROW! FREAK!!!" The kid yells, my past self is still on the floor crying and I'm on my knees, hands covering my face now. Crying as well, everything in coming back if I want it to or not.

3ed person P.O.V  

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(It's hard typing as you talking about past you and demon you!!! Everything that looks like 'this'  is demon you thinking or talking. Past you will be like 'this'. And 3ed person will look like 'this' Oh and when 3ed person is talking about past you its like this P/y but when 3ed person is talking about demon you its like this Y/n, you got it? Good!)

Y/n is on the floor crying the flashback ends and Y/n is now on the floor in her apartment, another flashback starts...

'I look up, I hear a bunch of kids talking and laughing?... I then see that its lunch time in the flashback.'

P/y looks around for a place to sit, not finding one she sits on the first table she sees. Waiting for her only friend Billy.

'This was the day I lost my only friend. I bit my lip, I don't want to see this. I look away intel I saw Billy walking to my past self. Even though I don't want to watch I do.'

I see Billy walking to me, she was my only friend and she was super nice! She sits down and looks and my smirking? "Can I tell you something." she snickered, I didn't think much of it so I nod my head yes, "I. Hate. You!" She spat at me before grabbing my lunch and throwing it to the ground, I didn't care about my launch. I was to confused and heart broken to care about a school bought lunch. Billy then looked over at Miles and smiled he walked over to us and look down at me before pushing me to the floor. "And stay there! That's where you belong!" He yells at me, he then spits on the floor next to me. I felt like killing myself. Billy then kicked me in the leg and the both of them run off.

Y/n looks at all this as she cries. Y/n has done her best to forget all these things but now there all she can think about... The flashback ends and another starts...

'I'm now at my old house before we moved, I can see my past self crying on floor in her room. I remember this too, She's just siting there crying. I remember we do this for the enter day...' 

(This is now Past you thinking not Demon you!)

'Why am I so weird? Why cant I be normal?! I just want to die! I cant do anything right, even my own mother and father think I'm a freak... I just need to run away! That's what I'm going to do! I can pack tomorrow! This will be perfect, I can go somewhere where no one knows me! I can make friends... I can be normal!'

Sadly P/y didn't get to do this. Because the next day P/y was sick and your mother did nothing but help you. The next few mounts where all the same, you would get pushed around. And would take your anger out on the neighbors pets... You had problems. Then when you turned 18 and you started to sleep walk...

-Time Skip-

'The next flashback starts and the last... I went through every single one. Every time I cried, every time I cut myself, got punched and kicked, killed someone's pet, and got called a freak. But this one I knew would be too much for me. But I stayed? I see myself get up from bed, at this point of my life I was cold and didn't care for anyone or anything. I was sleep walking again, I start to cry as I watch this. My past self grabs the knife I would keep next to my bed and she started walking to my mother and fathers room, I start to yell at her thinking she would hear me? "STOP!" I yell flouting in front of her but she goes past me and keeps walking, I can hear soft music play in my head? What is this?! I can't do this! I flout over to my past self and try to wake her up but I go through her. She walks into there room, I cant watch this. I stay out side there room and sit there. "Y/n what are you doing?!" I hear my mother say, "Y/N!" My father yells. I cry more as I then hear my mother yell in fear, I then hear my father crying. Then nothing, I know what that means. My past self walks out and sits on the floor on the other side of the hallway , I run in and see my mother and fathers blood on the walls I fall to my knees and look back to my past self, "What did you do!? *still crying* no... what did we do...?" I say holding onto my mother and father, I then see there ghost go up into the air. "Huh?" I hear my past self say from the hall. I look back to see her looking around confused, but she knows what she did. I stand up I don't want to see the rest I close my eyes and count to ten and then open my eyes. I'm now back in my apartment.'