Everything About Me

Chapter 10

He lied.

He's a liar.

Liar.

The word tasted salty as I said it. I just couldn't believe. After all this time.

I grabbed my stuff and the letter, and headed out the door. The streets were empty and the lights were just turned on for the coming night. My mind was buzzing with questions about the whole thing. How could he? I let him into my life and this is what I get in return? Nothing but a manipulative cheater who..who...who-!

Just, what even. I knew it was too good to last. I stood still, thinking. The green light for the pedestrian had turned red and just as I was about to walk, a car had honked at me, awakening me from my daydream and I stepped back as it passed me by.

I got home at around 9pm. The lights were dimmer than usual. Must be a slow night, I thought. I felt a buzz in my pocket and took out my phone; 8 missed calls, 20 unseen messages.
Huh, wonder why I didn't noticed. All of them were from Tyler?

I switched it off and headed inside, dashing up to my room, wanting alone time. The dark welcomed me as I opened the door. My stuff thrown to the other side of the room, the letter in my hand. I was mad, yet crushed and heartbroken. I wanted to stay mad at him but I couldn't. I just couldn't.

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Tyler's p.o.v.

Shit. Fuck. FUCK!
I was blinded with fury and concerned till my phone buzzed. A text? Alexa?!
My eyes darted through the text.

No...

Fuck no.

Alexa please.

Never had I ran so goddamn fast in my entire life.

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Dear Tyler,

by the time you read this, it means I'm dead. I found out about the whole thing from Melody. Before you go all defensive about it, I have the letter, so there's no point in denying. I thought what we had was special. I was finally happy for once but to find out it was all a dare? How fucking low of you.

I walked to my closet ever so slowly as the silent tears streamed down my face. My breathing heavy, my body feeling cold. The voices in my mind growing louder.

Just so you know, the time you were away, I never stopped thinking about you. Waiting for your return. Sadly, you disappointed me as well. No texts, no calls. Nothing.

Slowly turning the handle, thoughts ran through my mind. Should I even do this? Yes. No. I stared at the noose that hung on the rack.

I was hurting. I was hurt. I took pills for my depression and anxiety. School was and is still a torture. Many times I've had thoughts of killing myself yet I refrained from doing it. And it wasn't because of you. No, what stopped me from doing it was my family. My family of whores as I guess you'd called them behind my and their backs.

Emotionless. Numb to any feelings. I took the noose and closed the door.

It didn't stopped my from overdosing my pills though. I guess it was never enough anyway. You may not have been my first everything but you were the first that I opened up to. Shared feelings for. Did you know how happy I was when you told me you loved me? And kissed me that same night. Still, even as I'm texting you this, I still love you.

I took the nearby stool and hung the noose. The voices now screaming. Chanting in triumphant.

So thank you for everything. Even though most, if not all, was fake. I thank you. You'd given me a chance to experience happiness within this tortured life of mine. Take care McCormick.

Taking one last deep breath. I closed my eyes and put the noose around my neck.

Goodbye.

And I jumped.