My heart clenched as his name ran across my screen. I wasn't up for his games today. The push and pull of him had me nauseous. I have never been a fan of this relationship stuff but some how he drew me in like a moth to the flame. I wanted to keep my emotions under a lid away from sight but some how he brought them to light. Swallowing the lump in my throat I laid my head against the wall next to me. I was tired of all the spinning me around. Our last argument was frustrating and so not us. It wasn't what we do. Running my hand over my face, I could still hear my heart thundering in my chest.
"Natalie please cut the shit." He said finally looking at me since we sat down.
"What the hell are you talking about Jason. I have been here trying to get you to talk and all I get a bunch of bullshit" I said suddenly seething with anger.
"You know exactly why we aren't talking personal." He said as his eyes returned back to his menu. Clenching my jaw, I couldn't catch what game he was playing but I was not in the mood.
"Care to explain." I said slamming my menu down angrily. The sound of the menu hitting the table caught a few eyes that were around us. Sighing he leaned into table.
"You don't know what to keep between you and me and what to tell that nosey friend of yours. Who by the way loves to talk about us." He said before folding his arms against his chest.
"What are you talking about. I don't let her know what we talk about. Or what we do. She hears the the same stuff everyone else hear. The basics." I said rolling my eyes.
"Then why does she know that I said I love you and you weren't ready to say it back. Why does she know that we are going through a rough patch. Why huh?" He said as he ran a hand through his dark hair.
"You think I want people to know it's hard for me to say I love you. What the hell has your head screwed on backwards." I demanded tired of all the stuff he assumed she knew.
"She just always in our business. She is obsessed with you. You are all she's got and she isn't willing to let you be in this relationship by yourself." He said with a tired look in his eyes.
Pain struck my heart as I thought back on all the times I didn't share with him. Most of that time was filled with my best friend, but that's the thing she was my friend and I wasn't gonna let him just run over friendship.
"Look here Jason, I got a best friend. No she doesn't know everything, so if you think everytime she is talking it's about us, that's shitty." I say casting my eyes down on the table.
I hear him sigh.
"Okay I'll stop talking about it." He said before glancing back at his menu.
Opening the text I stared at the words on the screen.
Please forgive me for putting my ass in my mouth
From:💕Jay
Jason... I wish you wouldn't act like that sometimes
From: Nat Pat 💘
Babygirl, I'm sorry.
From: 💕jay
Shutting my phone screen off, I didn't want to argue anymore. Leaning off the wall I started to walk again swirling my keys in my hand.
Finally reaching my apartment I waved at the receptionist and made my way up two flights of stairs. Unlocking my door I slipped in and turned my hallway light on. Wondering into my kitchen, I warmed up a hot Pocket and walked into my living room.
Turning on the news, I just let it play in the background.
