Say Something - R&R connection fanfic

It's April third. He's still not by my side. I don't know what I expected. He can't come back... He's GONE. I couldn't save him. I couldn't drag him out of that coma. I couldn't have prevented that crash. I couldn't have just taken the brute force of that tree. No.

He did.

I looked to his limp body, my vision blurred and my head pounding. I went wide eyed and started to shake. I grabbed his arm and shook it. "Ryan..! Ryan baby please!! D-Don't do this to me! DON'T LEAVE ME!! PLEASE!!" I screamed and hugged him tightly, crying. It was all I could do. Maybe I could've saved him. Maybe.

Anywhere I would've followed him. But I can't anymore can I? I was going to follow him into marriage. I was going to follow him into that adoption center and get a little boy or a little girl with him. But I can't. All of that planning is gone. All of that happiness I had is gone.

It all left when he did.

I remember sitting next to his bed, begging him to wake up, begging him to speak to me, to say... SOMETHING. ANYTHING. But he never did. He never got up with that happy smile on his face. He never got up and said, "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry for scaring you baby." NEVER. He left me here alone.

I miss him so much.

I just wanna feel his embrace again. Those comforting strong arms and that broad chest against my body will never come again. I'll never hear his laugh, never see his smile and those beautiful pale blue eyes of his. It's only a distant memory. I wish that he'd come back... Somehow... I just wanna be with him one more time. One more chance. I'd treat him right. I cherish every moment with him. My heart would swell if I could just kiss him again.

Please come back Ryan... I miss you..