Love is Like A River

Chapter 4: Yuuki's Promise

Chapter 4: Yuuki's Promised Fate

*Two days before Kaname and Yuuki show up at Crosses apartment*

Kaname...Kaname...Kaname. The only word I know. The only word I love. Why? Why? Why? The only question I ask. Does he love me? He won't even look me in the eyes when he says those words. It's all a lie. Zero. The word I loathe. The man he really loves.

"Kaname, How is work?", I asked walking into his office. Kaname isn't an old fashioned soul, though every room I've been in has a modern look to it, but still withheld elegance. It didn't take me long to realize that the modern part of it was to remember Zero. I remember Zero telling me how he always wanted a family and the house he'll decorate will be a modern one. At least he told me those things when we were still friends. I've asked my brother to remodel this house but he instantly shot me down. Insisting that the house was a state of some sort against the council. On the inside, I rolled my eyes at his lecture.

Kaname and I have been in America for a year, now, but for Pureblood Vampires like us, it just seems like a month, at least for me it has.

"It's fine, Yuuki, only a bit more paperwork to do", Kaname replied.

"I've brought you tea", I said setting it on his desk next to him.

"Thank you", he said not looking up from his work.

"mhm, I'll be in the music room", I said exiting his office. Kaname never is distracted by me, no matter how much I try to impress him with the way I dress or more. He gives me a smile and a compliment, sometimes he'll even go so far as to kiss me, but it's always chaste.

"very well then", he replied flipping a page over.

Kaname...why won't you look at me with the eyes you look at with Zero. You miss him, I know you do. You left your journal open for prying eyes to see. For my prying eyes to see. You talk about how it feel like it's been years since you've seen him. You say how much you care for him. How much you want him. How much you wish you could have chosen him. I can never fulfill that piece of you. For now.

The music room. Kaname's favorite room in the house. The place where our family would make sheets of poetry from the heart. Kaname cherishes the memory, I would too if I had grown up remembering them. Every since I got my memories nothing but the agonizing pain has been brought back to my heart. The pain of losing them was too fresh and too vivid, not to mention the pain of having the person I love stolen from me. The pain of losing myself.

The Yuuki Kuran girl from my memory is innocent and fragile, and Yuuki Cross was devoured by the vampire I am today, by the new Yuuki Kuran. The girl who is conniving, sneaky, a liar, and a murderer.

"Yuuki-sama, how are you today?", one of the maids said to me as I entered the music room. If I remember correctly her name was Tomo, Tomo Kizune. She's the only maid allowed in the music room on Kaname's orders. He doesn't want anything broken and she's the most graceful one here. Out of the service we hired.

"I'm good, Tomo-san. Thanks for asking.", I said with a sweet smile on my face. It was the one and only famous Kuran Mask.

"The violin, again?", she asked politely.

"Yes", I replied. Tomo immediately glided to my case where my violin laid inside. She checked each string before handing it to me.

"Here you are, Yuuki-sama", she said. "Would you like me to step out to give you privacy?"

"Please do", I said getting into position to play. Once the door shut, leaving me to my thoughts I began to play.

The night was still. The chaos going on couldn't reach my ear. The clock tower we stood on shining a pure white. A pure angelic white. It was the innocence escaping my body, living an empty shell. A metallic taste filled my mouth in return. It was my brothers love. Bitter at first but then a burst of sweetness ran in.