First Love Never Dies. (Case)

Sophomore

CHAPTER 2

At ngayun sophomore na ako. Pero ito parin Mahal na mahal ko pa sya... Charr. Alam ko naman may naiibigan at nililigawan na syang iba pero ako sinisiksik ko parin ang sarili ko sa kanya baka may bahagi pa ako sa kanyang puso ang meron nga! (:  Akala ko nga noon na tinigilan nya na ang pagliligaw sa isa. Dahil lagi nyang sinasabi sa akin na "Do you love me"? or he still says imissyou, iloveyou, and we also teased each other at merong one time tumabi sya sa akin dahil may program non sa school so we watched it together kahit walang kibo2 but he didn't know sitting next to you doing absoluteyl nothing is everything to me.. i sooo miss that :<  Pero nong Aug. 19, 2011 was the worst day of my life...  here it goes, who would ever thought the one you love didn't loved you at all.. like wat i said before he keeps telling me " mahal mo paba ako"? or kung hindi nga "can you be my girlfriend again? at meron pa " ilove you soo much bestt! if you were at my position hindi kaba mag e.expect na mahal ka parin nya! :< he totally scwred! i was going to the canteen and there i saw my friends Cla, An, Fjii.. Fjii started hugging me i did'nt know that they already knew about it. So i said "heyy, y u hugging me? im not sick.? fjii replied "wala lang".. Cla and An was started saying with their wretched faces hmm i already have a doubt. "guys, please i know your hiding somthing from me, come on let it out promise i will be fine".. soo Fjii told it to me very slow and explained it. I was like.. WHAT?! you must be joking? iwas very shock then and misty-eyed already. My world just Stop!! :"<<< ughh! So i walked fast towards my room and there i saw Yan my bestfriend i looked at ayana with my miserable face beacause she knows how much i love eric. And Yan told me the whole story. I said. "YANNNNN!!! (crying) Yan hugged me and i was crying in yan's shoulders, the pain was sooo.. ughhh. you just cant explain. But i wont let Eric see that im crying.. I didn'nt mention what's the real reason soo here it is she asked a Freshmen girl to be his girlfriend that's the heart aching part! :'( Being replaced is the worst feeling EVER! S(HE) BE(LIE)VE(D).. my heart was full of pain. hurt, and i wanted to revenge...since that dayy i never texted him, chat him and i didn't go out to my room. i gussed there's no such thing as happy ending. huh?

B U T ................................................................................................

this is what i wrote on my journal : Titled: Better than Revenge

i was shocked when i heard that issue it left me breathless and misty-eyed. I didn't know what to do. I cant stand the pain so i cry it out but i didn't want you to see me crying so I wipe all my tears and kept the pain inside, i maybe smiling but inside im slowly drifting. Just tired listening to your reasons, tired trusting you and tired falling inlove with you over and over again. Maybe this is goodbye.. All you know is the hyper, energitic always happy Case, but it's only in the outside, you dont know what's in the inside. Welcome to my world of pain :( to be continued.....