Missing My Best Freind& Lover

But at least she said:"how im doing?"
I could tell is was difficult to express herself.she shuts down when shes under stress.And i know she was feeling akward, exicited&emotional.And i can sense her "EGO" in the atmosphere.shit!I was going through alot of emotions.it felt akward, but yet i also feel that im missed tremendously.that feeling felt so good.even though i knew i was missed.But to feel the vibe through her presense was so comfortably!
I broke the silence.I've missed you so much.But i know you know that.SHIT!,I've been trying to get your attention for months pineapplehead.they're was silence at the other end of the line, but i felt her giving a comfortable lil smile.When i felt her smile, i got a lil emotional.yeah so, i get a lil sentimental sometimes, Damn it! Thats my big baby.
And what! I say to myself.
It's been so difficult without you.you dont how much i miss going to walks in the park.how much times i played that scenerio in my mind.How we use to smoke& enjoy eachothers company.at the time when it was coming from heart& mind.i miss teasing you& annoying you.
You use to tell me stop.but sometimes(keep it real now)you really meant go.you loved the attention at times& at times you really didnt.and i use to sense it & stop.you know when it was good i respected you to the fullest.
I've kissed the ground you'ved walked on women.
And i knew on the other side of the line i also felt a nod of agreement.
Its good to hear your voice again.silence for a few seconds
Then she said in an unaudible tone say:"i miss you too" i know baby i know.
. what have you been up to.im in college now.im majoring in spanish.

Oh, you dont need me know more now, huh? I guess thats why one of the reasons you was ignoring me.shit, you dont meed me to teach you spanish.
The hell with me, right?.we give a genuine but tactful laugh.
That broke the ice a lil bit more.
So hows your mother,hector( i have to accept hec) oh my mothers fine.

But thanks for asking how im doing, right.its like that, huh?

Yesh, i guess it is like that.i was gonna come around to you.
Well, excuse me.i smile.
The typical way shes expected to come in a situation like this( probably)
Yeah my moms is cool.the same ol mom.just found out she has a lil tumorous cancer in her liver.
Gloria says: sorry to hear that.she'll be alright.they say is small& could defetnitly eradicate it
Thanks GOD gloria says
I have faith.it will take care of its self.
Tell her i said hi& to stay strong

I got you.ill tell her

Wats up with your mommy?
Shes doing good under the circumstances.her asthma is a lil better controlled
I hope so.i say
Im just frustated in seeing her suffer.let alone breaks my heart to see her in that condition.
I know you're going through it.Among other things.you always got more than you can chew on your plate.
Not that you cant accomplish it if you wish.your very capable.but you always want to challenge yourself that it effects you in negative ways( sometimes)people know who you are.some people really admire you.some publicly& some private( the haters).trust me, you have spoken long ago.theres no more need to do it to prove to peopl that you can( they know tat already)now, do it for pleasure& for self fulfiling purposes.
Its alright to slow down somstimes.seriously.
I know what you mean hec, but you know that i just cant stop.
Yeah, thats what worries me& a whole lot of other people
    It is really nice to hear your voice again.

Thank you baby.but i think i miss you more, morena.i miss saying that to you

I miss hearing it.
  You really do girl?.im touched

  Look, i have somewhere to go in a half hour.so let me let you go.i should be back home in a couple of hours.you can call me back in 4 hours if you feel like calling

Oh, stop it girl.you know it will be my pleasure

4 hours later

They've been talking for about an hour in ahalf

   They agree to talk again in a few days.they say they're good bys & say they will talk then

Hector is elated.he picks up the phone to call his boy.but decides to call in alil while.he wants to soak in the moment.Damn, ive missed her ass like hell!
   He lays down on his bed lights up a joint& starts relaxing to the beats of sweet melody
    Hec taught at times tat there was no hope.i mean,its been like 9 months now since the last time they talked to eachother.he knew tat the last time they faught it was dramatic& traumatic for her& him.But hec feels tat this really hit her hard the most.she ( gloria) was a very strong,but yet so delicate&vulnerable.shes been damaged mentally& psychologically!And has been in an unprecedented,distinguished,disturbing&unsuall phase in her life tat shes been tru.He feels deeply.i have also been torn to pieces"we've been tru so much" hec,says aloud to bimself.And hec feels tat he  mite have another chance to make the greatest attempt in his life to finally make his best adue ever.for both of they're torned souls but now abel to start seeing alil  lite at the end of tis long dark tunnel they've both been in for quite some time
  So to finally get to tis point,was really surreal& elating,im sure for both of them