A simple book without much meaning -rant

Relationships

I shan't have ample knowledge about commitment
For I haven't a partner ever in my lifetime.

I Haven't ever a mate to share kisses and sweet nothings at the early hours of the morn,
Nor have I graced in the beauty and sacrifice of fidelity.

However, I am sore aware of the luxury, and consequences of love.

I have spotted the glory of a blossoming relationship, of sweet outings and days filled with giggles and smiles.

I also know of the irony of attachment.
It's humorous really, how the very thing that is created to make you so rapturous, so euphoric, can lead to so much suffering. The desolation starts to suffocate you, the heartache ripping at your already heavy (dirty) soul.

I have seen lust, in which external beauty is the only bond between two supposed lovers, and any loss of that could brake the thinning knot they have formed.

I have found relationships that have ended in the tragic hands of death.

I have seen loss of devotion, deadening loyalty. I have heard lies, seen affairs, witnessed cheating.

I've seen it.

Yet I have not truly felt it.

Some swoon at the idea of love, as if it were the most magnificent thing this world had to offer. I, on the other hand, see no reason to want to waste precious time on such a subordinate figure. It seems neither pleasing nor enjoyable in any sense.

So why is it so "great" to be in love?

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Ok bc this has a bunch of big words and it's confusing af bc I suck here is a summary of this thing.

I don't know a lot about relationships bc I've never been in one, but I've seen the pros and cons and love seems to hurt more than it helps so I don't get why ppl in like middle school and shit are like "oh I rlly wanna date someone idk"

Also did anyone get the TØP reference?????? 😏