Where do I begin with her. I love her at least I think I do...I don't love her, and I guess it feels like it because I'm in love the idea of being in love I'm 14 I don't know what love is, and she doesn't know that I have feelings for another girl and I don't plan on telling her. Why you ask, because she is suicidal if I break up with her again she will kill herself and I won't be able to handle the guilt. But enough of that so she says she is in love with me and I tell her too that I love her but I made not sure it's love I feel like it's just the fact that we used to date and now it's just an aspect of not having the other that makes us want each other even more. I keep giving her false hope telling her I want to be with her forever, but I don't I'm in love with Her (read first chapter to find out who Her is), but at the moment she doesn't like me and apparently she never will so I've lost all hope with her.
Her
I found out that one of my "friends",that knew about me loving Her, told Her, "This person is in love with you", but the thing is I don't know who told her and now all because of them it's awkward and weird between me and her. Well she doesn't know I know, but still knowing that she feels like that it makes you start to deteriorate the little things you do like putting your arm around Her shoulder or telling Her 'I love you' but making it seem like a friendly one but it means a little more than that. I've decided to just avoid her more and distancing myself from her to just to give her some space from me.
