Fear every one has at least one but this is mine. see what I fear isn't a thing it's a place a place that doesn't quite exist and yet it does but only to me because this place I fear so much I created. Naw that may seem confusing so let me clarify this place I made I made in my head that's why it only exists to me but it was never made to scare me it was made to protect me mentally, to calm my nerves and relax me.
Eventually I'd have to yous this place of mine in public when I'm unable to get away from the problem so it seemed to develop some kind of autopilot that would kick in and would make me do things I wouldn't normally do. It even would change my personality based on the people around me. Eventually I would yous it so much subconsciously that there final came a time when it took over me and I didn't even notice till it was far to late. I could finely see that place for what it rely was but it was to late. I was trapped in it. The feeling was so terrible like I was trapped in my own skin and something else was in control and no one even noticed.
It had played it role perfectly and every one fell for it like they always had.
For years I fought to escape and there would be times when I would get out but people would seamed to like the fake me so mutch more it made it hard to stay out and it would drag me back in.
I have finally escaped it three years ago but thow I escaped it. It's still there hosting me and sometimes I can still feal that ominous dark place sitting there waiting trying to drag me back in their.
Honestly it haunts my dreams and still scares me enough to make me try when I think it has me and is draging me back in to that room of nouthing.
