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I was speechless, I never thought I would hear those words come out of his mouth. Ever. Never in a million years. Yes we showed great interest in eachother, but I didn't know he liked me that much. I knew that I loved him, I have for a while now. I just never admitted it to him because I was scared. I'm always scared.

What do I do? What do I do?

"Z-zack, I, um, I  " I really didn't have words for what happened.  I was still furious because I saw him kiss her back, but I was so into the moment in which was happening right now. I just wanted to hug him forever but punch him in the arm. He swung his arms around me and hugged me close and tight, his scent was amazing. I hugged him back and sobbed a little bit. "You don't have to say anything right now because I bet your lost and confused right now, so just relaxe." He said, comforting me. I felt like jumping for joy because he said he loved me, but I also wanted to crawl in a little corner and cry while listening to sad music. He walked me over to Michaela's bed and sat me down, he got on his knees in front of me. I looked at him and he stared back at me. After a while I decided to speak up. "Why did you kiss her back?" He looked at me with his eyes full of false innocence. "It was in the moment, you were mad at me and I didn't know what else to do. " "So instead of solving a problem you went to someone else for pleasure?" He hung his head low. I tilted his head upward, "Answer me zack." "Yes, I went to someone else for pleasure. I am sorry. You know that I love you more then anyone else in the world." "I don't know if I know that for sure." I climbed further on Michaela's bed and layed down with my phone in my hand, getting ready to text her. I was laying on my back with my phone in front of my face. I opened up my messages and clicked Michaela's section. Zack aas just staring at me as I typed.  I looked at him. "What?" "What?" "Stop staring at me, its rude." "I'm not staring, I'm admiring your beautiful face." I blushed. "Zack." "Yes, my love?" "No, stop it." "Stop what?" "Being cute. Stop. You should just leave." He climbed and layed next to me on her bed. "No thanks I'm fine right here." I groaned and pushed him away. He almost fell off the bed. "Zack, give me time and space. That's what I need right now." He got up. Then he looked at me again. He hovered over me and tossed my phone aside. "Okay, I will give you what you need, but I will wait for you." Then he kissed both my cheeks then my lips, then he got up and left. UGH. He knows what he does to me and he tortures me. After he had left I knew for sure I wasn't going to talk to him for atleast a week or so, I couldn't prepare myself for that. Yeah, the week of not talking to him would nearly kill me, but I cant just forgive him that easily. He isn't gonna get off the hook that fast. I texted Michaela everything, she awed and said she would be coming home soon, but I told her not to because she needs to hang out with her babe. They don't get to see each other often. So she told me she was gonna stay at school and I said okay. I just stayed in Michaela's bed writing on my phone and occasionally playing games. All that was on my mimd was how to respond to zack. How would I face him after the week was up? Ugh. I ended up falling asleep cuddling with a pillow and listening to sad music. Michaela shook me awake and I opened my eyes to see everyone looking at me. Zackariah, roxanne, Angelina, Michaela,  Yaron, everyone. "What?" I groaned and hid under the covers. "You have been sleeping for like 4 hours, the whatever day is over and we are doing something for you tonight. So get up and make yourself look attractive. " Michaela said to me. "Are you saying I don't look good right now?" I said pushing the blankets away from my face and peaking through. "Honey, just get up." So they went out of Michaela's room and I decided to make myself look somewhat decent. My makeup was done but you could still tell I had been crying recently.  I came out of Michaela's room, everyone was sitting on the couch besides Yaron, he was of course eating In the kitchen. I passed him and stood infront of Michaela and them. "Okay, what are we doing?" I said, basically agreeing to letting them take me wherever, oh lord.

We all just went walking, we kept walking and walking. I don't even know where we were after 40 minutes of walking. I made yaron give me a piggy back ride because I was tired and just not feeling this walk. I honestly was tired and wanted to sleep more but nope, I agreed to go with them. I fell asleep on yarons back and woke up when he poked my side. I jumped off of his back and screamed. I took in our location, this place looks familiar.. "Michaela,  where are we?" She just smiled and knocked on the door. A woman answered and immediately knew who it was. "Hello marisa darling, are you alright?" I plastered a smile on my face. "I'm doing fine Mrs.Devers , and you?" "I'm alright, are you here to see zack?" A lump started to form in my throat. I nudged Michaela.  "Actually were here for angelina, she said it was fine if we all hung out in the backyard." "Oh, that's fine." "Okay then, I will go get Angelina and everyone else head to the back. " She then ran up the stairs and I followed roxanne to the back. I was looking at the floor the whole time acting as if I was fascinated with my shoes. I bumped into someone.  "My bad." I didn't want to look up, "its fine, wait marisa?" Oh good lord. "Yeah um, hi. I'm gonna go to the backyard now.." Talk about awkward. This week was gonna be a pain. He kissed my cheek and followed me to the backyard, there were a bunch of zack's friends. What was this some type of party? Michaela came down with Angelina and I stood by them. I wondered how we were gonna get home, because all I want to do is sleep. We all sat down on the grass and I had my head in my hands. I was so sleepy. "Angelina,  I'm gonna go up to your room okay?" She nodded, "do you know which room it is?" "No, but I will figure it out." "Have zack show you he knows where it is." "Oh, he doesn't have to." "Too bad." Zack grabbed my hand and lead me through his house. My hand felt like there were a million beads inside because we were holding hands. He lead me up the stairs and to Angelina's room. "Um, thank you." I said to him. We sort of stayed quiet in the doorway. "Okay, well I'm gonna head back downstairs. Hug?" I agreed to hugging him because his hugs are just agh. His hand went on my lower back and pulled me close. I hugged him tight and nuzzled my head into his shoulder with a smile on my face. I could stay in his arms forever. I pulled away and he frowned, "have fun down stairs."  I settled myself on Angelina's floor and got cozy. I read a few stories on my phone and dozed off.

The dream I had was oh so delightful,  I woke up enlightened with the day. In my dream everything was perfect, me and zack were together hunter was out of the picture, everyone was happy and just agh. If only dreams came true. No one else was in the room so I went downstairs,  everyone was sleeping in the living room on the floor. Aww, I took my phone out and snapped a few pictures.  Say hello to instagram. I sat down on the couch and just fiddled with my thumbs until everyone started waking up. Zack came downstairs shirtless,  oh jesus help me. Once everyone woke up I walked back to Michaela's house. The walk wasn't that long, but when I got to hers I gathered my things and went home to my house. No one was home everyone was on trips, my parents trusted me with the house and said I can have someone over if I dont feel safe. So I started reading my book and I couldn't get through it because I was thinking of school tomorrow.  I have a plan. I'm just gonna stay quiet when he is around. Perfect.

I started preparing myself for school tomorrow,  getting my outfit and everything.  I took a shower and decided I would straighten my hair in the morning.  Everything was ready and for the rest of the night I talked on the phone with my mom.

Morning came and I got ready quickly, I decided to make pancakes for my breakfast, I had enough time. I made myself two and then was out of my house. My walk to school was quick, so I ended up waiting for Michaela in our usual spot. Zack and Angelina got here before Michaela did. How awkward. Ugh. I waited with them for a while and then Angelina said she had to go talk to her teacher, why am I always put into these situations.  So she left and guess who came along.  Hunter. Hunter ! Even more awkward.  She waltzed up to him, hugged him and kissed his cheek. Oh my god, Michaela hurry up, I thought in my head. "Hi zaaack." "Hi hunter." "I enjoyed friday." He just coughed awkwardly.  I laughed at this. Michaela came and I thanked the heavens. Me and her started walking to the portables, but before we did I turned around and looked at zack and said "have fun." Hope he enjoys it.

Throughout the whole school day I was off task, in dance class I couldn't dance right and forgot everything,  in choir I was hitting the wrong notes, and just ugh. It was a disaster.  Also, I kept seeing hunter with zack. Which made me a bit annoyed but its whatever. Afterschool came and I was so glad to go home. I walked home alone and decided to write / vent to myself. I was in so much pain, but I had to get through this week.