Im so done with everything! And honestly i dont know what im gonna do. I think I'll try to keep myself safe, but idk. Im moving soon, and personally im okay about it, its a fresh start, and i need this. I cant deal with them anymore, it hurts too much to see them in the hallways. I have a few friends left, and honestly i dont know what ill do with out those 3. But i know i will loose 2/3 if them to....them. i dont know how i will be, i dont know how i will live. I need something, someone, some support, maybe a new brain, new body to feel more confident, maybe i need a new voice, smiles, eyes. A new personality.
I mean why else would they hate me. Its all my fault, im the fuck up that ruins lives, im the fuck up that reminds people of their triggers, im the bastard that my own mother can't love. I need to leave.
I might be runninh from my problems, but I've stood my ground for to damn long! Maybe i shouldn't have said hi all those years ago, maybe i shouldn't have smiled at her that year, maybe i shouldn't have talked to her. Maybe its all my fault, maybe i deserve the hate, the pain, the looks and stares, the laughs behind my back, the scoffs at my happiness, the reaching out to my only friends left, the talking shit about me, maybe i do deserve this, maybe i wasn't ment for this world, maybe my death is the only positive thing in this world. Too bad it won't happen for another 5 years atleast.....
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pan problems
Non-FictionQ&A for pansexuality me being pan, i can awncer my FAQ and other questions people have asked me, no matter how ridiculous
