For Now and Forever; Namjin Fanfiction

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Do you ever have the feeling that all of your friends secretly hate you? Maybe you just have that much faith in humanity that you trust your friends enough. Or you haven't gone through anything. Either way, you probably have't experienced pain like I have. I've doubted myself so much I've learned to hate myself, I've lost almost all reason to trust anyone, I've self harmed, I've almost committed suicide three times, but then it all changed. It all changed when I saw that one person singing on video. 

Maybe I, I can never fly.

This man's singing probably changed my life forever. I vowed then I would do almost anything to meet him. Have you ever heard the thing where it says, "I saw a man so beautiful I started crying?" Well that was my only thought in that moment. I saw him, and my only reaction was to start crying. That's how beautiful he was. 

Today was the day.

I was finally going to meet Kim Seokjin, the man who made me cry because of his beautiful singing. 

I walked up the stairs to the place. It was kind of dusty, and seemed untouched for years. I grew anxious, wondering if this was really the place he wanted to meet. I reached the top of the stairs, and his eyes met mine.

He had dusty pink hair, just like in his video. He took of his white mask, to reveal his plump, pink lips. 

"Hi. I'm Kim Seokjin. You must be Namjoon. Pleasure." He said, extending his arm, smiling at me. I felt like I was going to faint.

"Mhm..." I said, extending my arm as well to shake his. 

"You're probably wondering why I asked you to meet you in this dump." He said, looking around at the dusty walls and furniture. His eyes glistened, almost with pride as he examined the place. 

"Yeah, kind of." I replied.

"Well, to put it lightly, I'm being followed. Basically. I wanted a place that they'd never find me." He said, "And this is the place. I actually live here. I grew up here. I haven't done much with the place, my apologies, but please, take a seat. I'll have one of the body guards grab us drinks from the cafe down the street." 

I nodded, sitting on the couch as he asked the guard to order us drunks. He sat next to me.

"Why did you want to meet me, Namjoon?" He asked, "I'm not really anything too special, just a singer."

"The singer that changed my life." I said. "You don't even know, I was browsing the internet when I found your Awake video, and suddenly my world brightened. It was almost enlightening. Of course I'd want to meet you."

"Huh. That's odd. Never heard that one before. Nevertheless, I'm curious Namjoon, what's your sexuality?" 

"What?" I looked at him, confused.

"Was that too forward? Damn, I'm so awkward sometimes. I don't get much interaction with anyone because of the people that like to follow me. I apologize." He said.

"No, I mean, I just wasn't expecting it. I'm straight though, since you were wondering." I replied.

"Oh, I see." He seemed almost disappointed in my answer. I shrugged it off.

"Here's your drinks, sirs." The guard came into the room with the drinks. Seokjin took them, and handed my drink to me.

"Seokjin, what made you want to pursue music?" I asked.

"You can call me Jin, by the way. To answer your question, music has always been a passion of mine. I think there is a specific contemporary characteristic between all the young people and people influenced by music in the world. It's really nice to see people, like you, who are influenced by my music and love listening to it as much as I love making it."