My online mate #wattys2016

Too much of a coward

Darkness , that's all I could see . I couldn't feel anything and a slight thought came into mind maybe I'm dead , but I know I wasn't because I heard my foster dad come into the room and he was clearly talking to someone. So I can't feel or see but I can hear. To be honest I wish I could just die right now.

"Ergh why isn't she waking up yet". I hear the most annoying voice that belongs to my so loving foster sister Amber .Note the sarcasm.-_-

"Ah I don't know maybe she's dead" Jack said causally.

"No" Amber pauses
"I can still her heart beat , a very low heart beat but she's alive". She says with a tint of disappointment in her voice.

I don't know why they hate me they just do. Sometimes I don't understand why they even adopted someone they hate?

"Daddy why don't you just kill her , she's just a waste of space nobody will miss her".

"You know I can't Amber" he sighs.

"Whatever now wake her up I'm hungry"!

Ugh why can't she get off her lazy ass and do it her self!
Even with the amount of hate I have for her I wouldn't dare say that to her , because it would end up with me more damaged then I already am , if that's possible.

Still into darkness I hear Jack let out a frustrated moan and his footsteps come closer and closer to me.

"I know what will wake her" with that he punch me hard in the stomach.

That instantly made my eyes open and the pain rushed through my whole abdomen.

I started coughing blood and tears where going down my eyes.

"Good the bitch is awake now go make us dinner!" Amber screamed.

Her pricing blue eyes glared into mine I could smell her hate coming from her.

I tried to get up but every time I did a shooting pain went through my body.

"Ah your so weak , no wonder everyone hates you , why everyone at your old pack disowned you".Amber spit .

"Your ugly nothing but a waste of space! I even feel sorry for your mate you should just die to save your self of being rejected,because that's what's going to happen rejection" she carried on.

Tears where forming in my eyes.

"Go make me food" with that she gave me an evil smile and left the room.

After I made Jack and Amber dinner I rushed up stairs and into the bathroom grabbing the blade.
I looked at my self through the mirror.
Ambers right I am ugly , I'm nothing but a waste of space! I'm not wanted and I'm not even going to be wanted my my mate! I know as soon as he sees me he'll rejected me , just like everyone else has.

I get my Blade in my hand.

1cut..

2cut...

3cut ...

Blood was pouring down my arm to the floor.

I started to feel drowsy. I fell to my knees letting the blood spread across the the bathroom floor. I felt sleepy very very sleepy . My eyes dropped and I blacked out, but I remember one thing. I'm not going to die this what I'm doing can't kill me. Only silver or ripping out my own heart could kill me. I wish I was dead but I'm to much of a coward to do that. so here I am passed out on the bathroom floor waiting for the next day of pain to come.