Love and Basketball {Book 1}

Chapter 10: Flashback

You cannot make yourself have a flashback, nor will you have one unless you are emotionally ready to remember something. Once remembered, the memory can help you to face more of the truth. You can then express your pent-up feelings about the memory and continue on your path to recovery. Think of the flashback as a clue to the next piece of work. No matter how painful, try to view it as a positive indication that you are now ready and willing to remember ~Beverly Engel

We walked back to the beach hand in hand and as a soon as we were out of his eye sight I let go

Me: Ewwww I was touching your hand and I called you babe

Dustin: whatever, you know you liked it

Me: No I really didn't, but thanks for saving me back there

Dustin: no prob, No man should ever put his hands on a women

Me: I agree

Dustin: So girlfriend, we haven't kissed yet

Me: And Were not going to because we're not dating

Dustin: So you used me as your boyfri----

Me: Wait a minute, it was your idea to be my boyfriend

Dustin: You still owe me, I have a question for you?

Me: Ask away

Dustin: Can you tell me about the first time he Abused you?

I can feel the tears starting to form so i looked to the sky hopping that they will stay in.

Dustin: Wait... No don't tell me

Me: it's okay. If I don't tell someone im gonna Explode

Dustin: Take your time

Me:

*********FlashBack***********

It's 8:30pm and I'm just coming home from basketball practise, I was ten minutes late because I needed some extra practise because tomorrow was my first game. Me and Jordan have been arguing a lot lately because he was doing drugs.

Me: I'm home

Jordan: Your late

Me: I had a late practise

Jordan: bull

Me: I don't wanna argue (starts walking up the stairs)

Jordan: (pulls me back) I'm not done talking

Me: Jordan, I think we need to break up

Jordan: We break up when I say we break up, Now listen

Me: What do you want?

Jordan: (Slaps me) when you talk to me, I want to hear respect in your voice

Me: D-did y-you just s-slap me?

Jordan: Shut up, Now what was the real reason you were late

Me: I told you, basketball practise

Jordan: (Slaps again) Now I'm going to ask again, tell me the truth before I get mad. WHERE WERE YOU?

Me: Jordan, I told you I was at basketball practise

.............

********Flashback Over*********

Dustin: What happened next?

Me: (Now Crying) H-he grabbed my head and smashed it into a wall and when I fell onto the ground, he kicked me and slapped me then grabbed a belt and beat me.