One Direction Preferences

#2 He Knows You Cut

NIALL: You rush in the bathroom in complete tears. Why can't you be her? Why can't you be Barbara or lucky as her? Is there something wrong with you? You think so. You find a new razor and take it apart, keeping the blade. Sure, you have done this before. Never cutting too deep. Never showing anyone. But now it's different. At this moment you want to die, you don't care who sees you're scars. You lean against the tub sitting on the floor. Bringing your wrist up, you glide the blade across your fragile skin and a thin line of blood rushes out. Tears are blurring your vision so you don't see how deep your cutting. Then it's banging at the door. "Y/N! Are you okay? What's the matter?" There's panic in Niall's voice. You block out his voice. You stopped sobbing but tears continue to fall. Blood streams out like a waterfall and you watch it all. Niall bursts the door open. "What the hell are you doing?!" Niall screams face red with rage. You shrug not caring about life anymore. Niall takes a seat by you and takes off his shirt wrapping it around your bloody wrists. "Why?!" Niall sobs. "I love you Niall," You cry in his arms. His face goes blank and he kisses your lips for a split second, "I-I love you too." "Why didnt you tell me? Why?" You say. "I've been knew you cut...I didnt know what to do! I didn't know what to say!" He sobs. "Do you hear me? Y/N?" He said. But everything is tuned out. Tears are stopped. You can't move a thing. You can barely breathe. The throbbing of your wrist continues. Niall is talking but you cant make it out. White appears at the edges of your eyes, everything is blurry. But what you can do is hold Niall tight. Niall isn't sure what's happening...but you're dying..and you wish you could tell him.

ZAYN: Again. You argued with Zayn again. You're almost crying but you're holding it back by taking deep breaths. Lately, he's been having alot of hate and troubles. It's all been tooken out on you. And he gets so upset at you. It makes you very scared. Sometimes you think he might hit you from the rage he has. But he'll never ever harm you. "Y/N! Where are you? Do you ever think about others?!" Zayn yells. You walk to the living room where he is and give him a stare. "Well do you?!" He barked. "Yes! I do! Stop yelling at me!" You screamed back. "Liar! You're inconsiderate!" He comes forward and you back into the wall and he's in your face. "Why do I even date you? I made a huge mistake!" You lied. Zayn raises up his hand like he's gonna hit you. You flinch, bringing up your hand to cover your face, waiting on impact. But it doesn't come... Zayn grabs your wrist "Y/N...what the hell?" He sighs. Tears brim at your eyes. "I'm sorry Zayn. I'm sorry I'm stupid and not good enough." You whisper. "No....no, Y/N I'm sorry..I love you," Zayn brings your wrist up and kisses it then he tells you how much he's sorry. And well, after that you never argued as horrible as that :)

LIAM: Depression. It always sweeps over you. Liam is on tour and you miss him badly. You've been self harming...but on your theighs so no one could see them. But now you couldn't find your razor. You wonder how's it feel with the scissors. You take the scissors and decide whether you should do it. Yes, it's stupid and foolish but you can't help it and it's driving you crazy. Your lips quiver and you bring it across your leg. A couple of tears fall from your eye. Then at that same moment, Zayn barges in,"Y/N! I missed you...what the hell are you doing?! Liam!" You start to panic he must not know! Liam runs in and by your side he snatches it out of your hands and throws it on the ground with complete anger. You cry in his arms and he notices the other cuts in your leg and he curses at you for doing that and at the same time he's saying how much he loves you. Youll never cut as long as he's by your side.

HARRY: "Aha noooo!" You dash away runni at a fast pace. You just sprayed Harry in the face with water and he's running after you. All laughs and giggles. You've been dating Harry for about six months. Oh the bedroom!! You run in his room and Harry sees you in there. You fall on the bed, laughing and Harry tickles you so much. "Harry! Stop! Ah Harry!" You yell trying to catch your breath. "Mm is that how you sound in bed?" Harry says continuing to torture you. You ignore it because he's tickling you so much. Harry stops abruptly. You glance up at him and he makes a very pained expression. Maybe you accidentally kicked him in the wrong place. "Why?" He whispered touching your chest. Oh. Color drains out of your face. You havent mean for him to see that. You tried to kill yourself once. It's a long story. "Harry..I just," You sit up and he gets off you swallowing hard. "I'm sorry" you whispered. Tears form at his green eyes. He's lost for words as he thinks. He knows its because of him. He used to insult you always. Not anymore. "Y/N..but...I..I love you," He says quietly. Harry has never ever told you this. Ever. His face breaks your heart and you begin to sob uncontrollably as Harry plants a kiss on your wound then he kisses your lips and you stay holding each other for a while. You, never cutting again.

LOUIS: "That cloud looks like a...a bear," You say that afternoon. "No, it's a heart," Louis corrects. "No its not!" you roll your eyes at his stupid idea. "It is too! You're mad cause its not a stupid bear." Louis laughs. "Whatever," You say and the cloud does look like more of a heart. "But that is an anchor no one can tell me otherwise!" You point in the sky. Louis snags your wrist as he sees horrible cuts. "HOW DID I NOT NOTICE!" Louis screams. "Lou, its ok," You try to calm him. "No THE FUCK ITS NOT!" He yells. "Louis!" "I'M A HORRIBLE BOYFRIEND!" He shouts. "No Louis no its not cause you," You pull him in a tight hug and he somewhat calms down but throughout the whole day he repeatedly says sorry and that he loves you so much :)