She Used To Be Mines

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Bey POV

It Was More Of A Surprise Than Anything To Be Sitting In This Restaurant With Jay. I Couldn't Help But Get Butterflies , It Was Like Our First Date. Jay Always Had Made Me Nervous When We First Started Dating , He Was My First Real Boyfriend , My First Love...The First To Take My Virginity...Everything. I Would Have Never Thought Our Life's Would Turn In This Direction. I Always Thought We Would Be Together Until We Die.

"I'm Real Proud Of You" He Said Snapping Me Out Of My Thoughts. I Had A Huge Kool-Aid Smile Plastered On My Face.

"Thank You ...You Didn't Have To Take Me Out" I Chuckled , It Was His Idea Once I Had Got The Letter In The Mail And In My Email About The Scholarship And Acceptance Letter. I Was Jumping For Joy And Almost Caused The Workers That's Been Working On The House  A Heart Attack.

"I Know It Sounds Childish But I Wanted To Reward You" He Said Picking Up His Glass.

I Bit My Bottom Lip "I Can't Wait To Start In The Spring"

"Oh I Thought You Was Starting In The Summer?" He Asked

"No...I Wanted To Start Right Away"

He Nodded As It Fell To Silence, Jay Picked Up His Bread And Began Putting The Butter On It.

"Enough About Me...Things Around The House Have Been Fun. I Missed Us Being A Family" I Said Nervously

He Let Out A Low Sigh "Do You Know What Classes You Taking?"

"Jay" I Said

"What" He Spat , How Could A Beautiful Dinner Make A Left So Quick?

"You Know I Was Going To Want To Talk About Us Sooner Or Later"

"Well I'm Not Ready For That Conversation " He Simply Said

"And Why Not? It's Been Weeks Since All That Went Down" I Said

He Looked Into My Eyes "Well I Don't Move On Quick Like You"

I Scoffed "I Deserved That One"

The Waitress Came Placing Our Plates Down In Front Of Us. "Enjoy Guys" She Smiled Walking Away.

"Why Aren't You Ready To Talk About This?" I Asked

"I Don't Trust You...Aight?"

It Was Like The Whole World Stopped. I Knew It Would Take Some Time For Him To Love Me But I Never Thought He'd Say Something Like That To Me. I Always Thought Our Love Was Strong Enough To Make Something Like That Disappear And Move On.

"I- I Understand That-"

"You Don't , Why Can't You Just Sit Back And Enjoy Us Being Cool Around One Another?" He Asked

I Looked Down "But I've Sat And Enjoyed It...You Said It Yourself I Was Your First Lo-"

"I Will Always Love You Bey , As For Taking You Into My Heart Again And Willing To Trust You With My Heart Is A Different Story. You Proven To Me That Yes You Love Me But Not Enough" He Explained

"Well I'm Gonna Do Whatever It Takes To Get You Back" I Said

He Chuckled Lightly , Cutting His Steak Up. Jay Thinks I'm Playing. I Messed Up Once I'm Not Letting Him Go Again No Matter What Happens Between Us Along The Way.