Last night after my parents got home they insisted that Jacob stay over our house. I couldn’t be happier but I didn’t want to be. He couldn’t be my mate if Malvin was supposed to be. I couldn’t tell him and I couldn’t tell Malvin, he loves me and he would probably be absolutely crushed. I know I would be if I was him, I love him so much. Jacob and I are such great friends that we usually sleep together no problem. When I told him that he could sleep in the bed and I’d sleep on the floor he looked a little hurt and confused but didn’t complain.
In the morning he went home before I woke up and I felt really bad but decided not to push anything. I was about to call Malvin but he called me and said he needed to talk to me about something.
The doorbell rang just as I finished getting ready and when I opened it Malvin was standing there looking stressed and nervous.
“What’s wrong babe?” I asked urgently. He looked down and when he looked back up the sympathy in his eyes was enough to scare the crap out of me.
“Can we go upstairs and talk?” He whispered looking up the stairs.
“Umm.. Sure.” I said quickly. We walked silently up the stairs while I tried not to puke out of anxiety. When we got to my room he sat down on my bed and I sat on my couch chair facing him.
“Okay so.. My dad got a job promotion.” He stated slowly. I smiled relieved that it wasn’t bad news.
“That’s amazing! Tell him I say congratulations.” I was beaming at him but he still looked nervous and unhappy.
“Well, the new job is in China. My whole family will have to move there,” he looked at me carefully. “Including me.. And we won’t be back for a long time.” When he finished he apologized and told me he was leaving tomorrow. After he apologized again he got up and left me. I curled into a ball and cried until I passed out. When I woke up I was in Jacob’s arms and he was sitting on his bed. I had a terrible headache so I cringed and a second later I had a glass of water to my lips. Jacob started massaging my temples and the pain immediately subsided only to be replaced by a tingling feeling. I didn’t want him to do this because I was going to fall for him when I was supposed to be with Malvin. Except Malvin didn’t even look that sad that he had to leave. Still, it was so wrong.. but felt so right. I was so confused that I felt like I wanted to throw up.
I got up from his lap slowly only to fall over and have Jacob catch me right before I face planted.
“Sit back down Lis.” Jacob insisted as I struggled to get up.
“No I’m fine Jace.” I shot back looking at him sadly. The truth was I wasn’t fine and I don’t know what I was going to do without him but I just couldn’t be around him anymore. He picked me up and set me back on the bed looking at me sympathetically before taking my hand in his. I ripped my hand away and whimpered when I saw pain and sadness flood his eyes. My vision blurred at the thought that I hurt him but as the tears fell I swiped at them angrily.
“I’m sorry Lis I didn’t mean to.. I just.. I’m sorry.” He whispered and left the room. I started shaking and sobbing uncontrollably until I picked myself up and climbed out of his window into my open bedroom window. Our houses are close enough that we can just hop onto the ledge and into each other’s windows. I closed the window quickly and locked my bedroom door. Walking into my bathroom I grabbed a pair of scissors and locked the door before sitting on the closed toilet. I began painfully swiping at my arm hoping I’d just bleed to death so that Jacob could have a better mate. I did want him to be my mate but I also didn’t want him to be.
I started to see back dots until all I saw was black and I passed out.
Jacobs POV
Lis.. She was in pain. I could feel it something was causing her pain. I hated to see my mate in pain and all because of that idiot Malvin. My wolf started to rise up as my eyes darkened but I took deep breaths and calmed myself. I walked to my window and opened it carefully before praying that Lis was herself enough to be careless and leave her window unlocked. CLICK. YES! I love that girl. I slipped into her room carefully only to find it empty. I panicked because her bedroom door was closed so she must have be somewhere in her room. I spotted her closed bathroom door and tried to open it only to find it was locked. I looked through the keyhole and what I saw made me want to rip someones head off. My baby was lying on the floor her arm dripping blood all over the floor. I stepped back and grabbed the handle, letting my wolf take over and break the door open. I calmed down and picked up my cold, limp mate. I couldn’t help but cry a little hoping that she hadn’t died. ‘Why hadn’t I been here before? I’m a horrible mate and I don’t deserve this precious girl in my arms.’ I lied her down on the bed and got stuff for her arm trying not to let my wolf surface at the sight of her wounds.
