He's gone. He's dead. I couldn't save him. Its my fault. I should have protected him. He was mine to protect and I failed. I failed him. I'm a horrible person. I should have been there for him more. It wasn't his fault. It wasn't mine either. But I can't help but blame myself. I was to late. I couldn't help Alec. What is the point of living without him here. I miss him so much. I haven't left my house since he died. Since he jumped off my balcony. Ill never look at it the same. It used to be one of my favorite places. He must gave fallen apart after Jocelyn died. I couldn't see how broken he was. I should have. It feels like a part of my died with him. I feel so empty.
The funeral is tomorrow. I wasn't going to go because his family isn't very fond of me. But Izzy convinced me to go. I spent most of my days on the couch, alone watching my shadowhunter boyfriends favorite movies and TV shows. Remembering how we used to do this together.
It doesn't feel like it's ever going to get better. I loved him. He was special. Different from everyone else I've date. I don't know how much longer I can take this. There is a hole in my chest. It doesn't feel like it will ever be filled again. I slowly stand up. Tears streaming down my face. I walk out to the balcony. I climb onto the ledge where I watched Alec take his last breath. Then I take mine. I fall back and I feel the air rush past me. I close my eyes as I go to see my Alexander once again.
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Malec one shots
FanfictionThis is my first one shot book. Ill do some different malec stuff maybe same phan will be in there. If you have any suggestions please comment below. Ill try to update as much as possible. Enjoy!!
