Beyond Our World

Chapter 3: Roses are red, and I am dead?

I felt so cold, lonely and unhappy. Why hadn't I died? Why was I still in a cage, alone, without Finn? Why didn't they let me escape? Did they need me? Or were they so selfish that they wanted me here, with them, only so they could be happy- while I have to fake a smile and laugh. I didn't saw the point, of having me here, when all I did was making drama, chaos, sorrow and fights. People left because of me; and I didn't push them away, not that far. They wanted me, I knew that. While I was in this world, I knew someone was watching over me, but that they were only watching- not helping. They knew  I needed them, but chose to stay where they were. Not moving a finger or an eye, they watched. And I knew they hated it. I knew that they felt angry. "Why does she always try to impress?" They stayed away from work, happy to know that I were an excuse. An excuse so they could pause their lifes, take a break from reality. I wanted a life-break. From all feelings, but I failed. And now I have to live, knowing that nothing have changed- only their opinion about me.

She was so cold. Her hands had turned blue over the night, and the nurses said it was normal. But, of coruse, Emma didn't care. She sat there, angry and hatefull over her daughter. Things at work had went so well, and then she had to try to kill herself, like she was the only one in this world who had it difficult. Emma nodded for herself, knowing she was wrong. She couldn't be so heartless? Knowing that Kenny was out there somewhere, without the news about his daugther, she felt less gulity. She was here, he wasn't.

Emma took her left leg over the right, tired of waiting, she breathed out. How long did these coma-things take?, she thought for herself. The machine on Kathy' rightside said "pep" every second. Emma rubbed her forehead with her left hand, and up to her hair, which had a very business look-alike. Emma pushed the "help" button on the bed, and a nurse came running in. "Is she awake?" the nurse, Lina, said  patiently. "No, I was just wondring if there is a doctor near by?"

Lina couldn't ignore to make a grimace. She hated her patient's mom, and she gave her an ugly smile. "No, and I would like if you didn't used that button, AGAIN. It's only for those who are sick, and as I see it, nothing is more important to push a button for, if she ain't awake. You keep sitting there, and DO NOT TOUCH ANYTHING, Miss Smith," Lina said sarcastic and slow, like she was talking to a child. Emma pursed her lips, like a child would have done, and said: Fine."

"But I can make a doctor stop by here. I'll check if anyone got the time," the nurse said and disappeared. Emma looked down at Kathy, a little bit worried- still not so worried that she would stay here all day.

After eight minutes, Emma gave up. It seemed to her that the doctor  Lina had went searching for ,was not going to come. Therefor, Emma took her coat on and gave Kathy a kiss on the forehead, before she left the room, which smelled like diseases and heat. Greatful as she was, she left without saying "good-bye" or "thank you" to anyone, who had saved her little Kathy' life.

Lina, the nurse, came by after some minutes. She had been watching Emma leave, hoping to get some silent time with her patient. Lina fixed Kathy' pillow and her cover before she placed a glass of water next to her; just in case. Then she went out of the room, down the hall with a smile on her mouth. The roomdoor to Kathy' room was closed, and she layed there, all alone in her dreams...

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I woke up in a field, with roses. Red, yellow, pink and black roses. They were all so pretty to watch, and it took a while before I noticed that I was naked in this field. I felt so embarrassed, but then again, I noticed that I were all alone out there. With a forest behind me, which was were dark and scary, I didn't knew where to go. In front of me, it seemed like the rose field had no end. There were no clouds, still it was raining, and an invisible wind came now and then, and I figured out that I should start searching for some water, clothes and food. But it was easier said than done, cause' when I started to walk,  I felt so cold. It was almost like my body had been in ice for too long. My hands were light blue-purple. My teeth began to chatter, and I felt a huge need to lay down in the rose field; which I did.

There were no birds, animals or insects, and I began to think "Am I dead? Is this the end of the world? Is death this lonely? Apart from who I love?" But I didn't even rememered if I ever had loved someone. How had I ended up here? I couldn't remember anything, and it made me feel scared and angry. I started to think for so long, that it felt like an infinity. But when I stood up, it wasn't dark, and the sun was still shining, at the same time it was raining. From where, I don't know.

Suddenly, a voice began to spike, inside my head. I felt crazy, didn't knew where to go to make it stop. But the voice didn't hurt me, or made me scared. It told me to go into the forest, that the roses had a spell, which made all people stay there forever, thinking over life, thinking over who they are. I turned around, headed the forest, but the rose field seemed so much safer, and I wanted to turn around, walk into the roses world.

-but, I couldn't move me feet. Like they were sinking into mud, but it was strange, since there was no mud around me in the rose field. Like a huge hand took a hard grip around my feet, it lifted me, high up in the air, holding me there, shaking me so I got dizzy; it didn't let me go. The grip was so hard around me, I felt the blood stop to circulate. "Ahh, let me go!" I yelled with my loudest voice. The hand was invisible, like it was the wind itself that was holding my naked body up in the air. And it didn't seemed to listen to me. It could fly, too, I understood, since it was dragging me along the ground, making me get all the mud and twigs' in my hair, ripping up my body so it got all sore. The voice began to spike again, and somehow it made me feel safe, from this gigant invisible hand. Don't fight it. Let the unknown take you to places that you've never seen, it whispered. I shook my head, nervously. "No!," I yelled loud again, hitting the ground with my hands. I had lost all my feelings in the feet, and my hair was just a huge tangle. "Let me go! Help!"

Don't fight it, let it take you to unknown places...

I felt tired, scared and the hands was still dragging me longer and longer into the forest. It wasn't fast, and it took so long that I actually fell asleep. I dreamt about the roses, how safe they had felt, how soft and lovely they were. The gigant hand suddenly stopped, and I woke up. A hand was reached out towards me, and  I looked up to see a face that I never knew I would see again...

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Thank you for reading my story! :)

I know it maybe has some misspelled grammar, and I am truly sorry for that. If there is anything wrong with spaces between words, or to many letters, then they are made by mistake.

I'm not going to write prologs like this everytime, cause' I know how "irritating" it can be to always end a chapter with the writers words and thanks; but thanks (lol).

Thank you, and I hope you find this story fun to read and interesting. Have a great day !