Saving You|Park Jimin| Lost Series

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Jimin
After I was done eating and threw away that creepy letter from Seohyun, I decided to go to my dance room.

I looked around the light blue walls and stared at them as they looked at me. I found myself sitting down with tears again, dripping down my face.

That color light blue meant so much to me. People just think of colors as things to lighten up a room. But colors have meaning.

Light blue is the color of the sky and sea. It is often associated with depth and stability. It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom, confidence, intelligence, faith, truth, and heaven.  Light blue is considered beneficial to the mind and body.

I laughed as I lost all of that. I lost trust and loyalty from army. I lost wisdom and confidence from my hyungs. I lost intelligence and faith from my family and most importantly  I lost truth and the promise of heaven from God.

It seemed like everything crashed down at my feet. I honestly don't why, that what hurts the most. When you don't know why everyone hates you.

I slowly got up and walked to the sound system, I plugged in my phone gently and played "butterfly".

Everyone thinks I am horrible at dancing so I guess I should work harder? Or if I work harder will that even change anything?

[amugeotdo saenggakhaji ma]
[Don't think of anything.]

[neon amu maldo kkeonaejido ma]
[Don't say anything, not even a word.]

[geunyang naege useojwo]
[Just give me a smile]

I smiled as tears poured out, I spread out my arms. I let the music overtake my body as passion filled up my veins.

As the song ended my tears we're dried. The last thing that was stuck into my head was the words.

"You shining this pitch black darkness."

I kept thinking, who is shinning?

I miss my hyungs...

I walked backup stairs with my phone in hand. I thew myself on my bed once again. I looked on Twitter and saw
#WeloveJimin

I gave a bitter smile as tears kept rolling down.

hypocrites..

You say you love me but here I am suffering because of you. I just want them to love me. But why? Why don't they.

-kakao: message from Seohyun-

Seohyun 10:30am
[don't you dare feed yourself with lies.]

Jimin Park 10:32am
[do you have a "shut up" button]

Seohyun 10:32am
[do you have a "stop being prideful and get help" button??]

Jimin Park 10:34am
[I didn't ask for help.]

Seohyun 10:37am
[I didn't ask for your opinion.]

Jimin Park 10:39am
[i hate you.]

Seohyun 10:43am
[10 reasons why I love Park Jimin
1. You're amazing in and out
2.You're voice is so beautiful
3.You're smile is priceless
4.Your hands are the cutest things I have ever seen.
5. Your passion for your music is so inspiring.
6.Your love for army is adorable.
7.You are the strongest person I have ever met.
8.Your undying love for your hyungs makes people cry.
9.You never give up
10.You fall down but you get back up.]

My hands stopped as I started at her writing it gave me so much encouragement and I don't even know why.

Jimin Park 10:47am
[Thanks...]

You managed to slowly thaw my cold heart.

A/N: next update tomorrow ❤