Loving You Too Much ; Septiplier

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Seán's POV
I get out of the car, rubbing my eyes. I pull my sleeves over my hands and wipe the stray tears. I walk into the building, pulling my backpack strap back onto my shoulder. I walk to English and sit in the back. I really don't want to talk to anyone right now.

After English, I walk to Gym. I sit on the bleachers, putting my ear buds in. I scratch my thigh and close my eyes. I dose off slowly, not wanting to be here. I feel someone poke me, I open my eyes. "What is it?" "Class is over." I stand, grab my things and walk to calculus. I sit down and wipe a few extra stray tears. "Dude. Are you ok?" Felix asks as he sees my eyes. He looks me up and down as I nod. "Oh my God, dude! You're bleeding!" I look at my thigh and see blood seeping through my sweatpants. "Shit. It's nothing, Felix. Just where the cat got me yesterday." "Oh ok. Just take care of it soon."

  "Why are you upset?" He asks rubbing my back. I sigh,"I just didn't get any sleep last night. Then this morning, I got into a huge fight with my dad. He was just extremely mad because he apparently found something on my computer. It was something either about gay porn or gay people. I don't know, it's hard to tell when he's yelling." I wipe my eyes once more.

Felix rubs my back and says,"Wanna ditch next period?" I shook my head,"No I have a test in History." He nodded and we didn't say another word.

After History was lunch. I walked up to Felix and sat down. We started a conversation about games as Tyler joined us. "Seán, could I have some advice?" I nod and say, "sure, what is it?" "I like Ethan, from History. I don't know how to tell him." "Well you need to be honest. If you like him, tell him. You'll regret not doing it." He nodded and said,"Thank you, I trust your advice." With that he stood and walked away.

I turned back to Felix and said,"I really don't want to go to French." "Wanna ditch the rest of the day?" "No. I can not do that. If my dad finds out, I'm dead." I grabbed my leftovers and stood. I threw my trash away and walked back to Felix. "I'm just gonna go to class early." He nodded as I grabbed my backpack. I walked out of the cafeteria to French.

I walked into his class and sat down. I laid my head down and slept through most of the class. I just didn't want to be here anymore.

I just sat in Technology, helping people when I had to. I doodled on the back of the worksheet to pass some time. When the bell rang, I gathered my things and walked to Science.

I walked in and saw that Mr. Fischbach is in a red flannel with the sleeves rolled to his elbows. His hair is a brighter red, his facial hair is growing back. He looks absolutely stunning. I walk to my seat and turn to Felix. "He touched up his hair." Felix nodded and said," Apparently someone saw him with a girl picking out the color. I think they said her name was Amy." My cheeks got hot and I got angry. "Well... Ok then." Felix looked at me,"it was probably just his friend." I nod and look at him. "Why can't I just love him?" "Because he might never love you back. That and it's against the law for a teacher to date a student." "It shouldn't be."

After class, I took my bag and stood. I walked to his desk and handed in my paper. "Oh Seán, are you ok?" "Yeah, why?" "Well for one, you're bleeding. Second, you looked really upset this morning." By now everyone was gone. It was just him and I. I wanted to run, the tension was too much. "Oh, I didn't get much sleep last night and I had a fight with my dad. The blood is from a scratch."

He looked me in the eye and said,"Seán, don't lie to me. I'm worried about you. I care about you, I just don't want to see you in pain." "Well no one asked you to care! I didn't ask for this! For the pain you cause me! God, you're just so fucking perfect! Knowing I'll never have you, it hurts! I just want to love you! To fucking escape from everything to you!" He looked taken back by my words. "But. I can't force you to love me or even care for me the way I care for you." He steps closer to me,"Seán, I-" I step closer to the door,"I-I have to go. I can't do this. Not today atleast." I turned and ran out the door.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why would I say that?

A/N
Sorry if it's shitty. I wrote it at like 3 in the morning. What's gonna happen with Mark and Seán??? Anyways love you guys. Bye.