Depression come upon you quietly
In the beginning you struggle with the little things but chose to ignore them
It's like a headache you tell yourself it's temporary and it will pass it's just another bad day
But it's not
Your stuck in this state of mind
Your used to putting on your social mask and continue to live among other people
Because it's what you have to do
That what others do
However the problem does not go away
You struggle to put on a play everyday
And it starts to cost you more and more
That is why you fall even deeper and that's when you slowly start to back away from friends and family
Sometimes completely shutting them out
All satisfaction is gone
The things that used to bring you joy are now worthless
Even the simplest task become painful
And that is why you lack motivation
Why would you keep on trying if nothing makes you happy anyway
All of this makes you feel even worse and can be caught in a vicious cycle
Suddenly you find yourself living in slow motion
Days become distinguishable
Like noise like heaviness
Filling your mind and spilling all over your body
You feel as though you will never be happy again
You continue to back away and destroy relationships
Your wishing for everything you've done and everything you haven't
There is a part of you that wants to make things right
A sudden positive absurd that makes you want to go out and meet people but it's all very short lived because you know it won't work anyway
And so in the end you chose to be alone in your comfort zone
Where no one ask any questions
Low self of steam and lake of purpose become unbearable
You finally realize you can't go on that way and two things can happen
You either try to get some help or try to attempt a suicide
