It_Started_With an_END

chapter - 6 starting with the end

There is one thing that I probably knew by this time and it was you can always love someone but not be loved by the one you want .but as we all know sometimes the heart needs more time to accept something that the mind already knows .same was with me,my heart was  not ready to accept the fact that Ron was not the perfect prince Charming I had been dreaming of past these years and that he could never love me the way I love him . All of his flaws somehow were not visible to me , my love alone was enough to keep me going on and so I decided that these might all be just rumors because deep down my heart still had this hope and belief that Ron has a sweet side a kind heart which just needs to be given some space to let it out. And so I decided to ignore what I knew and embrace what  I believed in. That day I cried , cried a lot cried the hell out of me , so hard that all the pain shall be removed but deep down I knew what I am doing is only gonna hurt me and kill me . One sided love , just like a fire burning inside  as much as you get closer to it , it will burn you and would one day kill you completely it's like suffocation as far as you try running from it, it will somehow manage to catch you and kill you still . I went to school daily watched him flirt with all girls  in front of my eyes and acted like it didn't matter when deep down it was killing  me . This thing harmed me so much that I even forgot that we had a play to practice for and Mr. Henson being my Romeo . The worst part of the whole situation was looking into his eyes and acting like I don't give a damn when actually his eyes were my world . Days passed we met daily practiced together for a week but something was just not right , something was missing , I guess it was my hope , my hope all shattered apart . At one side it was me broken inside  smiling outside and on the other side it was him busy flirting with his Juliet . Yes I know I am supposed to be the Juliet but all thanks to my friends who could see my suffering and change the Juliet which didn't turned out so well 'cause as usual I came for the practice daily but instead of being the one on the balcony I ended up being the one in the audience and Samara ended up being his Juliet . What in this world was wrong with me I want to be his Juliet and at the same time I wanna run away from him . Thinking this the rehearsal came to an end FINALLY and I started walking out of the hall .

"So where are you headed Ms. Cooper ", he said.

"Away from you Mr. Henson ", I exclaimed.

"Ouch ","ouchhhhhh  how can you just say that Haley it hurts here ".

"Hurts where "?, I said uninterested .

"Here ", he said pointing towards his heart.

"Ohhh please just shut up Ron I am not Samara " , "I don't like this shitty cheesy flirty lines of yours don't even try them on me ", I said .

"Woah woah what's wrong with this hot head huh " ,"you okay Haley ?", he asked .

"As if you give a damn . As if anyone gives a damn . Who cares Ron ,who  does ","not even you do and we both know that " I said moving away .

"Goodbye Ron ". I said walking past him with tears rolling down my eyes .

(Aside) weird totally weird what is wrong with this girl . I think I need to know .

What the hell is wrong with me and my life every thing was supposed to happen the way it is then why am I running away from it , why am I so scared to stay , I knew it I knew it right from the start that things would end like this once we start talking the same way or even worse then why am I running away now .I guess now I know why I never told Ron about my feelings I know it . Just because I am too afraid of losing him I never had the privilege