The Light in His Life(Gaara romance)

Visit Gone Wrong

Tomorrow. Tomorrow is the final exam. Aris sighed, Naruto was in the hospital thanks to Chief Toad. She was so gonna scold them, and Pervy Sage later on. Now she was going to visit him, and Lee. Aris brought them both White Lilies every day. But today something was off. The air around the hospital was.....Cold, too cold. What's going on? Aris wondered.
Gaara's POV.
I decided to go to the hospital. I wanted to see if Aris's brother was alright, as well as that boy Lee. When I got there, the medical staff were on lunch break. Idiots. I passed Naruto's room, seeing that lazy Nara boy, Shikamaru I think Aris said his name was. He was playing Shiogi with himself, probably out of pure boredom. Then again, he always seems bored.
"Man, is he ever gonna wake up? Maybe the kid finally croaked." Shikamaru said tiredly to the unconscious Naruto. I made sure to stifle a chuckle as walked to Lee's room. Huh, ever since I came to Konoha, I've been feeling other emotions besides pain and anger, or annoyance due to my siblings. I think Aris is the cause of this. I hadn't smiled since she left Suna all hose years ago. Now, I feel actually happy, for the first time in a long while. I'm even starting to question my reason for living. When Aris left, I only fought for myself and loved only myself. I thought my purpose was to kill others to feel alive. But my time here with Aris, has made me doubt. Now I think I'm fighting for someone else....Aris. I gripped the shell hanging from my neck. It was warmer now then it was before we came to Konoha. I could feel Aris's sand in my gourd swirling. I stopped walking when I came to Lee's room. I entered then stood by his bed. He was sound asleep. Lucky. I thought a little annoyed. I stared at Lee's sleeping form. He was badly injured because of me. I felt guilty, also....envy. A sharp pain shot across my head. I held my head in pain. The blood lust was back.....Shukaku.
Come on! I want blood!
Didn't you get enough! Shukaku scoffed.
The kid is right there. And he's vulnerable! Now's your chance!
No! No more! No more blood and death! He doesn't deserve this! Woah, when did I start saying that?
Don't start getting soft on me kid. Just kill the brat already! I shook my head furiously.
Are you trying to get our asses kicked? I can't kill him!
Just do it! I need blood! I growled.
I can't! What would Aris think? And Sheika would kick your ass!
What they don't know won't kill them right?
Shut up!
Kill! Kill! Kill!
No! I was losing control. I couldn't hold back. Against my will, I raised my hand and my sand surrounded Lee ready to kill him. No! Stop! I can't! But then, I couldn't move. Suddenly, I was punched. I turned to see-
"What the heck do ya think your doing in here you rat?!" Naruto shouted.
"Hey! Go easy man! I'm using my shadow possession justu, so when your bashing him your bashing me!" Shikamaru said. He wiped his mouth, making me follow his movements. My sand armor was cracked.
"Sorry Shikamaru." Naruto said. They both glared at me.
"Out with it. What were you trying to pull?" Naruto said. He clenched his fist when I didn't answer.
"Well? Are you gonna tell us what you were gonna do?" He yelled. Better tell the truth.
"I was gonna kill him. But you stopped me." I said. I'm ​actually glad they did. I definitely wouldn't have forgiven myself afterwards.
"You already beat him once in the competition. What's your problem, wasn't that enough for you? Do you have some personal grudge against him or something?" Shikamaru asked.
"I have nothing against him, I simply wanted to kill him that's all." I said. That was half true. Shukaku was getting in my head, I could barely control what I was saying.
"Your sick in the head! Your crazy!" Naruto shouted. I sighed and closed my eyes for a second. If only he knew.
"Yeah, you think we're just gonna stand by and let you do what ever you want? You sick, selfish psycho!" Shikamaru said.
"If you don't stay out if my way, I might kill you too. I don't want to do this, but I don't have a choice." I said. Of course Naruto only heard the first part or more like he acted like he did.
"Oh really?! Let's just see you try it!" He yelled. I was starting to get a headache from him now too! Great. Sometimes I wonder how him and Aris are related, but then again.....can't judge a book by it's cover.
"Hey woah kid, take it easy!" Shikamaru yelled. He turned back to me.
"Yeah, yeah we watched your last match against Lee, we know your tough. But ya know, Naruto and I have a few little tricks up our sleeves as well. We were holding back during the competition, there are things you haven't seen yet. On top of that, hey it's two against one. So don't be a fool okay? Just take my advice and go, quietly." He said. I knew he was bluffing at least about himself. Shukaku roared at his nerve.
"I'll say it once more. Your gonna want to leave. If you get in my way I'll kill you." I said. Damn, I'm losing my grip. One part of me hopes they leave, another doesn't. If they stay, they're dead. If they leave, Lee's dead. Damn it! This isn't a win, win situation!
"I'll say it again! Let's see you try it!" Naruto yelled pointing at me.
"Back off will ya! We don't want to go there! This guy fights like he's mad! Like he's a demon or something!" Shikamaru said. I frowned. Again, if only he knew. Naruto smirked.
"He can act like a demon if he wants to but ya know what, I got the real thing inside of me." Naruto said. So he is a Jinchuriki. Not a surprise, considering Aris is one too. Exactly the reason I have to leave. Dammit, but Shukaku isn't listening!
"Idiot! Leave this to me! What's the point of getting him mad!" Shikamaru said elbowing Naruto.
Aris's POV
The hospital. Gaara's here, I can feel it. I ran down the corridor the flower still in my hand. I hope I'm not too late!
Regular POV
Gaara was raging in side, trying to keep himself in check. On the outside, he held his expressionless mask. He closed his eyes.
"A demon huh? My demon is as real as yours is." Gaara said. Aris had gotten near the door and listened. Gaara continued, opening his eyes which were full of pain.
"From my birth, my upbringing was not what most people would consider a happy one. To ensure I became the strongest of Shinobi my father had cast his ninjitsu on me. Infusing my unborn self with a sand spirit and I destroyed the life of the woman who gave birth to me. I was born a monster." He said. Aris clenched her fist. They still made him believe that! It's not true! Naruto's eyes widened. Is this what sis meant? I get it, he's also..... Even Shikamaru was surprised, A sand spirit?
"It's name is Shukaku, and it's the living incarnation of a old monk in the sand village sealed up in a jar of tea." Gaara said.
"Yeah, some demonic justu. But to use it on a baby, before it's even born? Man that's creepy!" Shikamaru said. Aris was right wasn't she? He knows exactly what we've been threw. Naruto thought. Aris furrowed her eyebrows, If only you knew Shikamaru.
"Gee, what a swell guy your dad must've been. He really must of loved you alot." Shikamaru said sarcastically. Aris clenched her jaw. Yeah sure, swell!
"You speak of love?" Gaara said. He began to think of Aris.
"Love, family? The only emotional ties I have to my family, are the ones I'd like to wrap around their necks. There only ties if hate. Given life by the death of my mother, I was brought into being and nurtured as the salvation of the village." Gaara said. More like weapon. Both he and Aris thought.
"I was the Kazekage's child. My father taught me the innermost secrets of the Shinobi. He pampered and protected me and left me to myself. For a time I thought that was love." He said. Until that day. Aris thought.
"And that was when everything started." Gaara continued.
"When what started?" Shikamaru asked. Gaara was silent, the unhappy memories returning.
"What ​was it? Are you gonna tell us or not? So go on, what started, what was it?" Naruto asked frowning.
"In the six years since I became six years old, my father tried to destroy me more times then I can count!" Gaara said angrily. Aris gasped. He never told her that! Her hatred for the Kazekage grew even more. Wasn't once fucking enough!? It was bad enough with Yashamaru! Aris could feel Gaara's hatred and pain. It was worse then it was years ago when last she saw him! Gaara was keeping this pain hidden from her. She knew it was bad, but not like this! Shikamaru and Naruto were horrified.
"You just finished saying how your father pampered and protected you! So which is it?" Shikamaru asked.
"Those that get to be too strong are appt become feared. The justu that gave me birth had unbalanced something in my mind. Even the fools in my village finally realized I had emotional problems." Gaara said. No thanks to them! Aris thought.
"The Kazekage, my father, created me as his ultimate weapon, but eventually I became a threat to the very village I was meant to save. By the time I was six I became a figure if terror to the villagers. To them I was a relic of the past they wished to disappear. So you see how I had failed the one purpose for which I was given life. What then was left for me in this existence? Why go on living? For a long time I couldn't find an answer to that. But in order to live you need a purpose, to exist for no reason is the same as being dead." Gaara explained. Aris felt like crying. He's exactly how I was before I met him! How could I leave him alone? I could have helped him! This is all my fault! I left to protect him, but instead left him alone to the pain. Gaara I'm so sorry! Warms tears streamed down her face.
"What is this guy talking about?" Shikamaru asked. I know just what he means, exactly. He's...he's the same as me! Naruto thought.
"Then in time the answer came to me. To put it simply my reason for living is in the killing of others, and for someone else. For years I lived in fear of the ones sent to murder me. But now I'm at peace and I killed many would-be assassins and it was while I was doing it the truth became clear to me. I live solely for myself​ and one other. And love? That part I haven't figured out yet. It was the death of my mother that first gave me life, now it's the death of others that sustains me, that makes me almost happy to be alive. And there's no end to it, as long as there are people to kill in this great wide crowded world, I will never disappear. There's only one person I could never hurt. Only one. She is the only person besides myself I live for." Gaara spoke. Wait, is he talking about Aris? Naruto wondered. Aris leaned against the wall. Shukaku and his damn father are the reason he's like this. And he lives for, me? Is it because I was there for him, because I understand him better then anyone? Aris held her shell. Does he....Love me? He said he hadn't figured that out. But is it really true? Love........ I....I think I love Gaara. A few of her tears fell onto the shell. Aris looked into the room. Shikamaru was scared shit less. Naruto was stunned. Like always she could hear everything they were thinking. I was alone too. I didn't know what I was here for. Why I was alive. Until Kai then Iruka-sensei came along. They saw what was in me, they gave me a purpose, a reason, for living. But this guy had no one but Aris and she had to leave him. He had to find the answer on his own, and this is what he came up with, to kill in order to live. But did Aris know about this? If she did, she'd probably blame herself. He couldn't be more right. Aris did blame herself. This is my fault. I did this! If I hadn't left Suna...... I'm sorry Gaara, I'm so sorry! Warm tears streamed down Aris's cheeks. The only thing I can do now, is pull Gaara out of this darkness. Just like I promised him. Naruto clenched his fist. Could I have ended up like that if....? Naruto mentally gasped. We're so different, but we're so close to being the same. No, I don't think I can beat this guy!.......Not without hating myself for it. Naruto took a step back. Gaara's​ last thread of control snapped.
"Hey, where you going? What's wrong?!" Shikamaru sounded just as shaken up. The sand turned into tendrils ready to strike. Naruto stood frozen as his memories of the past haunted him.
"Naruto! Hey wake up! Oh man what a drag! Naruto!" Shikamaru yelled to snap him out of it.
"Now, let me feel alive!" Gaara/Shukaku said.
"Incoming!!" Shikamaru yelled.
"Gaara stop!" The sand stopped in mid air. All three turned to see Aris standing in the door way, warm tears plain to see but her expression gave away nothing. Gaara's head started pounding, memories of the past plaguing his thoughts. He heard his younger self. "Don't leave me alone." "I'm not bleeding but it hurts alot!" He saw Yashamaru, wounded, his younger self crying. "What am I? What am I?!" Gaara started breathing heavily, as he clutched his head. He screamed. Aris rushed forward and placed her hands on his shoulders, as the sand went back to his gourd and Gai-sensei walked in. Naruto stepped forward not knowing what to do.
"Aris, I-" Gaara grunted in pain before he could continue. Aris placed one hand on his head, the other still on his shoulder.
"Shh, don't talk. It's okay." She brought him into a hug. He rested his head on her shoulder. She wrapped her arms his neck, running her hands threw his hair. Gaara wrapped his arms around her waist tightly.
"Sis?" Aris didn't let go of Gaara, but she looked at Naruto.
"You were right. He... He's just like us. He knows what we've been threw." Naruto said. A tear fell from Aris's eyes.
"He had it much worse then us though. I'm sorry Gaara." Aris said. She pulled away and looked at Gaara. He wouldn't meet her gaze, he stared at the ground. He didn't want to see the hatred or contempt in her eyes.
"Gaara, look at me." She put a hand on his cheek making him lift his head to look at her. Gaara stared at her afraid.
"Why did you come here? And don't lie to me. I know it wasn't to kill Lee." Aris asked calmly. Gaara stared at her in shock then looked down.
"I was checking on your brother and on Lee. But when I got here, I lost control." Gaara answered. Aris moved his bangs away from his kanji. He turned his gaze back to her. She smiled at him.
"It's alright." She held his hands, as he stared at her amazed. Just then her white sand came out then hit her in the chest, branding something on the right side just below her collar bone. She moved her shirt to see: the Kanji for Forgiveness.

She looked back at Gaara and grined.
"I'll always forgive you. No matter what." Aris said. She placed the flower she had for Lee down, then turned to the others.
"I'm sorry. But Shukaku can be a loud ass hat sometimes." Aris said. Speak of the devil.
Hey! Making Gaara, Aris and Naruto wince. Aris yelled back.
Don't you 'hey' me! Your in big trouble!" Sounds of Shukaku getting his ass kicked by Sheika in the back round made Gaara, Aris and Naruto chuckle. Aris looked down sadly.
"Let's​ go Gaara. Your siblings must be worried." Aris said.
"Aris, are you gonna be okay?" Gai asked. Aris glared at him, making back away hands raised.
"I can take care of myself." Aris growled. She grabbed Gaara's hand and started to leave, but she stopped real quick.
"I'm glad your up Naruto." Aris said turning too smile at Naruto, who frowned.
"Wait Gaara." He said. Gaara looked at him.
"I'm sorry." Naruto said a solemn look in his eyes. Aris frowned, I still need to find out just how kind Konoha has been to Naruto. She thought.
She then teleported her and Gaara on the roof top of where he was staying. She sat down on the edge and Gaara did the same. After a few moments Aris spoke.
"I'm to blame." She said. Gaara stared at her confused.
"If I hadn't left Suna, I could've ​done something. Protected you from your damn father. None of this would have happened. This is my fault. I'm sorry." Aris said, clamping her eyes shut trying to stop the tears. Gaara hugged her.
"Don't. Don't you dare blame yourself. None of this is your fault." Gaara said.
"Do you truly believe your a monster?" Aris asked.
"Yes." Gaara said. Aris pulled away and glared at him scoldingly.
"No your not. You never have been. Your just a boy. You are Gaara. And my reason for living." Aris said. Gaara stared at her in shock, then put a hand in her cheek. She smiled at him. He brought her closer, until they connected their lips. Aris gripped his shirt, while his other hand wrapped around her waist. Gaara licked her lips asking for entrance, Aris let him in and their tongues twirled with each other. She then wrapped her arms around his neck, her fingers playing with his hair. He deepened the kiss the wrapped his arms around her waist. They pulled away from each other, slightly panting.
"Aris, promise you'll be careful." Gaara said staring intently into her eyes. She kissed him.
"I promise." She said. Both were unaware of a shadow watching them. Sis, your not gonna save him alone, I promise.