Tearing Me From The Inside-Out

Chapter 1

Hey *not edited, sorry*

*November* 

Zayn's P.O.V

"Hey Liam. What are you up to today?" It's 8pm on a Sunday and I'm currently talking to Liam Payne, a 12th grader. It's been about 2 months since Liam and I have started talking. I'm gay and sorta have a tiny little Gigantic crush on Liam.

I'm not sure if Liam is gay or even bisexual but he's very touchy. Whether it's him brushing his thumb lightly over my cheek bone or him placing his hand really close to my bum while we're walking together in the empty halls or just flat out flirting with me.

"ZAAAAAAYN! Zayn, are you okay? You're not hurt, are you?!?!?" I hear Liam schreech into the phone.

"Haha, sorry. I kinda zoned out. Anyways, want to come over? I ask biting my bottom lip knowing he'd probably ask me to go over to his house instead of vice-versa. He always does that.

"Zayn" he sighs into the phone " You know Louis doesn't like me hanging around you."

" He went to Eleanor's house. He won't be back until way after 10. And my parents went to a work excursion. Please come over Li, I'm all alone" I say, trying to use the most innocent voice I could manage.

"Fine" He grumbles. I scream because Liam Payne is coming to MY house to hang out with me!

"Ugh. Shut up. I'll be over in 20. Bye lashes. He groans out.

I giggle remembering the nickname he gave me when we first met. " Bye Liam" I say then hang up.

I decide to get up to freshen up. I hop into the warm running shower, quickly lathering myself up in an Apple-Cinnamon soap gel then washing my hair with coconut scented shampoo. After drying myself and lotioning my skin, I walk to my closet and open the drawer with my underwear in it. I pull out tight red briefs, slipping them up my legs then over my bum. Then I walk over to my hung up pants. I take out a pair of grey skinny jeans and black track pants that has 23 on the back of the left thigh. I walk to the full length mirror to see which pants would make my bum look bigger than it already is. Seeing as I'm obviously going to low ride, I pick the black track pants. I go to my sweater section and pick out a black crewneck that says 'NINJAS'  on it.

I walk backto the washroom to see what I should do about my hair. I decide to leave it flat against my forehead. Lastly, I slip on a pair of black, white and red Mickey mouse socks just as I hear a car engine turn off. I qucikly check myself in the mirror one more time before walking downstairs just as the doorbell rang.

I open it to a grinning Liam holding Chinese take-out in one hand and some DvD's in the other. Prior to letting him in, I check out what he's wearing : blue cut up jeans with a red bandana in the back pocket, a white shirt with a leather jacket on top and black combat boots. He looks amazing. He walks in, handing me the food and DvD's while he takes off his shoes.

"Fuck, your house is huge. I didn't think it was small, judging by the outside but shit" Liam says looking around in awe.

"C'mon, let's go to my room" He looks at me hesitantly before beckoning me to lead the way.

As we walk up the stairs I could tell he was staring intensly at my briefs that were peeking out as I climbed the stairs. I felt my ears get hot but continued up the stairs.

"Okay, so this is my room. Um-you can siton my bed. I'll put the first movie in. The Son Of The Mask, is that okay?" I ask shyly. Why am I nervous, I talk to Liam all the time at school (when Louis isn't around obviously) *it's because he's in your safe haven*