Our Love Story.(a Jacksepticeye X Markiplier story){COMPLETED}

34: the journal 1...

Warning this chapter is pretty dark so yeah...
Journals pov:
I Can't believe I'm doing this...But it's been 3 days since mark has been in the hospital so I decided to buy a journal since I have no one to talk to...So I bought this journal to write in and well it's helping the pain a little.
~jack

Its now been 7 days since mark has been hit by the car...Sometimes I look at my engagement ring and wonder if he's ever coming back home..And sometimes I see anti crying sometimes idk why but he dose...The kids have been fine but they haven't talked to each other in 2 days..Huh I wonder sometimes what's going though there heads.
~jack

Its been 8 days since the accident but I've seen dark sometimes with anti are they planning something? Hahaha the thought of it scares me...And Tim has been talking to Wade lately since Wade's the kids babysitter while I go visit mark...I just wonder how Sam's taking it, he hasn't been talking lately not even to me...And when ever mark is brought up Sam just changes the subject...Like this morning Wade and Sam where talking​ then Wade said "so how is mark doing?" Then Sam looked like he was fighting back tears and said,"do u like to draw? I love to draw!" I'm worried about Sam sometimes...I should talk to him tonight.
~jack

It's 11pm right now I can't sleep after  the dream I had it was horrible...
It was in the hospital where mark was and It was dark no lights where on except the one coming from marks room, then I ran to see if mark was ok then I saw something that broke my heart and mind....It was Sam crying with blood on his hands and a knife next to him with mark dead on the hospital bed and then I heard Sam say through the sobs,"u have met a terrible fate haven't u?" Then he looked at me with green tear stains on his face then I ran to him and he cryed on my shoulder.
"Sam u did this!?" I asked him in my dream then Sam pointed to the corner of the hospital room and said,"he said he would kill u if I didn't do it!" Then I looked to the corner and saw anti laughing.
Yeah that was the dream that woke me up...It's crazy how the brain could make something fake
look so real.
~jack

It's been 2 weeks I think I've been loosing it slowly Because of the same dream that haunt's me Evey night with a new reaction...sadness, anger, disbelief, and other fellings and if course anti has been trying to brake my mind but he's been using mark in the hospital to his at advantages...And saying things like u know he'll never come back and he will die...
Well I have hope that what anti says is not true...
~jack

It's been 3 weeks and 2 days and it looks like Tim can see anti because this morning I saw Tim crying on the couch curled up in a ball then when I came to ask him what's wrong he screamed in fear then he realized it was me then he said sorry and hugged me still sobbing. Then Tim said" tell the mean man that looks like u to go away!" I stood in shock holding Tim then I put him down on the floor and told him to go get Sam and lock the bedroom door.
Then I  grabbed a knife and pointed it at anti. Leave Tim alone! I yelled then I don't remember the rest but Tim told me what happened he said,"I remember a scream then me and Sam got out of the room to see what happened then we saw u on the floor breathing but u didn't move! Then Sam saw your eyes and looked at me in fear then I looked then one of your eyes looked like a static some how! While the other eye had your pupil very small." Then here I am now writing they said It went away when I started to wake up.
~jack

Its now been one month! But I went to the hospital but they said that I had to wait one more month for mark to get better. So now I'm just waiting for mark and nothing else..
~jack