Getting You Back

Solving

Riley's POV

I finish hanging up my clothes that were in my suitcase. Currently, I am
at my apartment with James. He is in the kitchen while I was unpacking. I am
making him sleep on the couch for a bit. I don't want him in bed with me, even if we are in good terms. I am not exactly thrilled with the idea of us living together, but it's a start to get back on tract.

I haven't been to the studio in so long. I don't know what's happening. Miss Kate left me in charge of her dance studio. Not Emily. I am planning on going back very soon. I need to find something to do with my time. I'm better now. My baby is fine as well as my health. I look down and stare at my abdomen. You can't see my baby bump yet, I don't even have one actually.

"Hey Riley, Your lunch is on the table." James tells me. I follow him out to the small kitchen and sit down as he puts the plate in front of me like a little kid. "James, I can grab it." I tell him annoyed. "I know" He smiles. I used to love to look at him smile, I used to love to be around him. I wanted to be with him every minute of everyday but now, all I can think about when I look at him is how we treated each other. I hurt him, kissing Alfie broke him, I suffered from that believe me, I couldn't sleep at night, I had to go live with my parents again because they didn't trust me that I would take care of myself! But after I got better and found that I was pregnant, pregnant with James' baby. How could that even have happened, oh yea I remember, we talked and got carried away. After I told him, he said it was Alfie's, he told me that it was not his. He called me horrible things, someone nobody would ever want to hear someone say to them. Whenever I think of those words, it's like I reawaken the pain I was in and the sadness. So many times I wish I wasn't me, or here. I didn't want this to be my life but it was and I couldn't do anything about it.

"Riley." "Riley? Are you going to eat?" He asks interrupting my thoughts. "Umm yea." I reply looking down at my food. I didn't feel like eating, In fact, I felt like if I ate, I wouldn't keep it down.

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I'm lying in bed and it's 2 am, I just can't sleep. I can't stop thinking about what happend in the last few weeks. I mean, I kissed Alfie, broke up with James, wanted him back, had cut myself and got pregnant. I'm pregnant. There is a baby inside of me and this baby is the only reason James is here right now.

I feel like he doesn't give a damn about me. The things he said were the most hurtful thing I experienced in my life. When I heard them, all I wanted to do was scream in agony because of the pain in my heart. He knew exactly how his words affect me and yet he chose to say them. He wanted to hurt me on purpose and this makes me think if he ever really loved me.

I try to sleep for another 30 minutes but I'm sick of thinking if James is here because he loves me or just because he has to. I get up and make my way to the living room where James is.

"James." I say loud and shaking his shoulders knowing that he sleeps deep. He wakes up and groans. "What's up ?" He asks groggy sitting up. "I can't sleep." I say quietly. "Why?" He asks as I sit next to him on the couch. "I need to ask you something and you are gonna have to be completely honest.. Are you here because you love me or are you here just because your parents forced you?" He looks stunned at my question. "Riley I-" "James don't start with 'I don't know or I need time'. The things you said keep me up every night wondering if you mean them. I can't get over the fact that you wanted to hurt me even when I was trying so hard to get you back. James, I need to know if we have a future as a couple or just as teenage parents that share a kid. If its  the case you don't love me them please tell me and let me move on, don't keep playing me because I can guarantee that I wouldn't take it any longer." I ramble on but I needed to get this of my chest.

"Riley I love you. Please believe me, I'm so sorry for to what I did to you and I feel horrible. I don't deserve your love, Riley don't you get it? I just don't." He says and I look at him confused. James starts crying all of sudden and pulls me into a hug and buries his face into my shoulder.

"Riley I'm so so sorry. I never wanted for you to cut yourself and I never thought that your a slut or pathetic. I love you with everything I have and I'll never be able to forgive myself that I crushed the person I love the most." He sobs into my shoulder I just hug him back tighter fearing that if I let him go I would wake up and everything just a dream. "James, I love you too. You said yourself that people make mistakes as were human. We both did and I'm ready to forget what happend between us and I want us to be the old, happy and perfect jiley again but this time, with a mini us." I say lifting his head of my shoulder and look at him. He just grabs my cheeks and pulls me into kiss. Oh how I missed his lips. We kiss for several minutes which ends up with us laying down on the couch, me straddling him. This honestly feels so amazing and I couldn't be happier.

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I wake up naked in someone's arms. I turn around and see James probed up on his elbow watching me and slowly running his fingers up my spine. "Morning beautiful." he says in a morning voice.  "Morning." I reply reaching up to kiss him. He cups my cheek and slowly runs his hand down my sides while mine grip his neck.

"Last night was amazing." He whispers against my lips. I just smile letting him know I feel the same way. After cuddling a while we get dressed and started making breakfast together. About an hour later we are sitting
down on the couch enjoying each other's company.

"It feels so good to have you here again. I felt so lonely " I tell James as I cuddle into his chest." "It does feels great." He mumbles as he kisses the top of my head "What do you want to do today?" He asks. "This" Is all I say before I reach up to kiss him hard and passionately. And that is what we did all day.

WE ARE SO SO SORRY!!! We didn't know the update would take this long goodness. Both of us hope that the next one won't take as long. Thanks for waiting! You guys are the best.