MA ONLY JBRDN

Can't run from pain i'm lovin u

ND POV ;
first day of dating was just knowing how to tell ma friends, the squad**...nd the fact that ma boyfriend is one of ma friends ex* so ..it sucks...
i played the role of the player which hurt i guess...cz deep down there was smthg want so bad to be with him, but i couldnt show, they will think i stole him or smthg, nd even for him i didnt want him to feel that im so over him,...i looked ..well i acted cold , nd i regret that ...

i told ma friends that im doing this to revenge to ma friend only , but i swear i wouldnt nd i would never do anything to  hurt him, or make him feel sad...
when we talk about him , or when he call, we laugh nd do the i dont care acts, but ive felt hurt , by every word they said about him ...
in front of him i tried to look nice but not a lover, ive hide ma love, that was burning inside actually....

i shared nd lived the most cute moments in ma life, i truelly lived smthg called a beautifull life when i was with him, i loved him, i loved his act , his madness, his care, his.." the whole thing he is"",....

we were like drunk in streets, people  were studying for last year exam , while we were laughing, nd living wild life, talking nd looking lovely to each other, argueing sometimes, nd making out very passionatly....

the first day i met him nd talked, i found him in his friend classroom, i took a look inside nd ive found him, i felt extremly happy when i saw him, i liked his eyes look...

i talked to him, nd it was ma first, some of his friend knew me already so i talked to them a bit, to know them better, we, laughed nd got freak, i liked how he is, both of us was not over reacting, we just moved with the flow of words nd smiles, nd looks, ...

i told him things about ma self nd so he did, nd before the bell rang, i wore my pinaform, nd he asked me why, cz he find it weird how i wear it after school, nd ive explained to him, the fact that my family is a bit sevear so ...
he stood up , to walk out together but he faced me, asking for....a first date kiss, i got shy, a bit i swear, nd i just looked at his eyes while he was insisting, nd i accept it..

it was our first kiss...

it was hot nd i melt down a bit in that kiss, with so so soft lips, i felt he was sucking ma mouth in, i liked how his lips surrounded mine, with heat of sexual desire we both had....

i smelled scean of his cigarette around his face nd i got even hotter, but i took control of ma self ...

i looked at him when we polled away , nd smiled , saying jokingly that i will smell like cigarette when i get home and mom will ask me about it....

we walked outside together, nd i said to ma self  ; what a day *..what a feeling i had back then ...
i liked him, nd i honestly didnt want to be far from him ever....

SHORT CHPTR I KNOW BUT SORRY IT SHOULD BE
SO THAT EXITEMENT WILL SHOW UP IN THE NEXT ONE HAHA
CYA
ND