You Are My One And Only.

Chapter 8

It's been about a week since she tried to overdose Ive been keeping a close eye on her since, she seems the same, she hasn't really become any happier, I've made her smile and giggle a few times but I haven't seen her be happy with herself. We had sex a few nights ago, well we tried, she didn't feel up to it, Ive stopped asking since then, I don't want her to feel like she needs to , no now, not ever. We used to have it quite a lot, I would always be the one who just let her do everything, and I would just lay there.

A few hours later whilst she was sleeping I went out for about 2 hours which is something I really didn't want to do because of what happened last time, but we needed food, we had been eating waffles and toast because I didn't want her to hurt herself again. I had to go out, I took £120.00 and went shopping, I brought food then I went to the sweet section and go her some of her favourite sweets, I just kept worrying about what she is doing , is she sleeping or... What? I quickly got to a checkout and paid for the food it came to £114.89 which was very expensive, but at least I bought a trolly full and go her some treats.

I got all the bags into a taxi and went home I walked in a quickly dropped the bags off in the kitchen and went to check the bedroom, I slowly walked in, she wasn't in there, I panicked and searched upstairs, I then went into her parents old bedroom and there she was lying like a fetus dripping with blood, cuts covering her arms, slashes on her legs, I broke down in tears as I quickly scooped her up into my arms and carried her into the bathroom, I knew I shouldn't have left her, haven't I learnt my lesson? I ran us a bath, I knew she wouldn't go in unless I was in there with her, she's was so broken, so depressed and crushed inside and out.

Her wounds were so deep, I washed her up, her clinging to me as usual, I have to be strong for her, after her bath I decided to take her to my mother as she worked as a nurse so she could stitch her up so her wounds wouldn't become infected. I called my mom to tell her we would be over and told her the situation " yes sure please I'm ready to help, I will set everything up, see you in a minute" she cut off I called us a taxi and we made our way to my mothers.

When we got there I rushed to the door holding her in my arms, my mother answered the door and was shocked by me holding her, I brought her inside and lay her on the kitchen table, which was marble it was an island in the middle of the kitchen the easiest thing to wipe blood off. My mom go out her nurses first aid kit and gave her some anesthesia to numb the pain, and she just lay there limp and life less, her eyes looked so empty but the green looked so bright.

After my mother had finished I asked if she could drop us both home " yes sure my pleasure at least I know both of you would get home safely" it was about 10:00 so when we got home I thanked my mother a lot and I carried my love up to bed, she looked at me and cupped my cheek with her hand and kissed me so softly but then it become a much longer kiss, I lay with her massaging her back and stroking over her stitched up cuts wondering what she will do next.

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Things have taken a turn for the worst I know but bear with me!!!
Things will look up for them both
Paige x