No Longer Myself

I Remember

I remember how I used to be,
I used to smile, dance, socialize,
I used to feel safe,
I used to think I could do anything I wanted,
The way I used to be was happy, I used to live a life, and love that love
That was the way I was before you,
Before you started drinking your life away, drowning your sorrows in alcohol and relieving your anger by hurting me,
Before I had to hide, act, lie,
Before I was afraid to be in my own house.
I only wish I could be like this now, I only wish that you would put the bottle down, lower your hand,
I wish this every time I see a family walking happily down the street, every time I hear a story about how much someone loves their mother.
Why won't you let me be like that anymore?