I miss the feeling and the high I get when She's here.
Making my blood and head pound along with my heart racing.
Only one Thing does that to me, and She's called Fear.
What a double edge sword and another blessing!
Secretly I have a bitter joy when She smiles.
Like a Serial killer picking up her favorite knife.
True Hunters love the taste and smell of blood after traveling all those miles. Just for a decent kill.
Isn't it Insane?
To even try to get back everything Fear steals?
Its hard finding anything that takes away the pain.
Thats what hits me in the mornings.
Even before I go to bed Im remined of those scares.
Makes me not even want to try because Im tired of the bleeding.
It Hurts Me so damn much even to look up into the night at the Moon and stars.
Her word's ringing in my ears keeping me from Sleep.
"I don't love him anymore", "He's not Caring anymore" To be honest I wish She would of just Killed me.
She even warned me She would say things like that that would Hurt me, but I didn't realize it'd cut me so far into my Soul i wish it was bone deep.
Those word's keep floting around in my Brain.
Their trying to cloud my Judgment from bad and good.
But here's the thing (My Memories keep trying to cause me more pain)
And sometimes it works and it destroys my mood.
Only it doesn't always show.
