Where He Leads

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Natahimik silang lahat after kong magsalita, tiningnan ko din si zen na gulat ang ekspresyon.. Why? Nagising ba sila sa katotohanan na wala ka namang mapapala sa simbahan? Tss.. If so, they should be thankful to me

"Andy, being a christian doesn't mean being excused sa trials.. We need to follow God no matter what! Hindi sya ang nagbibigay ng tukso .. Sya ang sumusubok sa pananampalataya natin.. Kung dahil nasaktan ka kaya ka tumigil it means you let God down! He will not give you trials that you can't solve .. And you can only solve it if you seek for his help.. We should always serve Him.. He was crucified beacause of our since--"

"We didn't ask for that!"

"What?! Come on! Its a gift andy! Ma sasave tayo if we believe! If we turn our back from our sins.. Sabi mo nga.. You didn't ask for his blood .. Youu didn't want to be washed? You are not asking to be saved? And yet he saved you! He saved us! Even if we don't deserve it--"

"That's it! He knew that we don't deserve it then why did he sacrificed his life for us who are so sinful! And then he wants us to praise, serve, sing.. Etc for him! All because he sacrificed his life for us! I didn't want that.. I don't want any of it.. Why did he sacrificed? Huh? To be the hero? Para matawag na tagapagligtas--"

"No! You are too much andy! You still don't get it do you? .. He saved you, me, us .. He saved everyone because.. He. Loves .us.. You may still doubt about it.. But please open your eyes! Dont be blind just because of those trials! We are sinful, we don't have the right to asl for that kaya mas wala kang karapatang tumanggi sa biyaya nyang yun! Sino ba tayo para tumanggi? Sya ang nagbigay ng buhay mo kaya ka nya ayaw mapahamak.. Now sana mag isip isip ka muna bago ka nagsalita ng mga bagay na nakakabastos sa harap ng Dios"

Hindi ako makapagsalita.. I was shocked! Kaya umalis ako doon at umiyak ng umiyak sa garden.. Noong bata pa kami ni kuya kapag sunday and saturdays nandito kaming pamilya sa church.. At hindi ko naimagine ang sarili ko na magkakaganito sa Panginoon.. Siguro noong bata pa ako ang faith ko ay gayon na lamang.. Nasira ang lahat dahil sa halimbawa ng tatay ko.. Dahil doon magimg rebelde ako

Nasayang lahat ng natutunan ko noong bata pa ako.. Yung pananampalatayang papalago palang naputol .. Ang tanong ko noon bakit nya hinayaang masira ang pamilya namin.. I doubted God as if his promises were not enough

I doubted his words
His promises
And even his power..

I doubted everything.. Kaya nagtaka ako kasi pinilit pa din ako ni mom magsimba.. Sabi ko noon 'bakit nagagawa nyang purihin si Lord eh pinabayaan nya kami?'

Naalala ko pa pala lahat..

"Naaalala ko pala lahat.. Pinili ko lang huwag alalahanin kasi galit ako"

Napatalon ako nang may biglang humawak sa balikat ko