Love That Last A Life Time

Present Time

Monica's Pov

Sitting here thinking how in the hell did I let this Man Ruin me almost 22+ years of marriage and now i'm sitting her reminiscing on the past. Its funny how things work them self's out. 

I got that I love you yet cant stand to be around you type love Yet sometimes you make me want to leave you by the way you act I can be stressed without your stress and depressed without you to be depressed over at times I feel like nothing in this world could compare At others I feel like I'm comparing you to someone who can do better I got it on lock with the love in my heart for you Yet it seems as all you do is break my heart and hurt me too I got that half sour half sweet feeling going on at times I feel weak for you then the way you treat me makes me strong You are a definite positive to my comparative state of emotion at bay then you surface as a snake and a ripe tide begins I fall in this den of negativity You pull me under like the devil in hell himself God sent you an angel and this is what you've done to his help I'm here to love you but all you see is pain I'm here to warm you and you put me out in the rain What do I do? Do I stay in thoughts that you will become my charming prince? Or do I leave now based on this repeated evidence. U tell me cause it's one choice to be made I should feel like a queen instead I feel like a love slave Considerate and loyal too but all I hear is I don't know how to trust you For your love I have played the fool but in the end it will be you who will be left schooled You will learn later that the love I have for you is greater than any wall in china,Wider than any deep blue sea, and stronger than the faith of mustard seed I'm so fed up but I know what I need. I need to either leave you alone Or teach you how to treat me.